LifeUpdate

Hey I know it’s been a while since I posted. A lot had happened so far and I’m scared and I just need people to talk to who get it.

First thing is first I am no longer on college campus. I went to college for the first couple of days I pushed myself and I ended up having my paralysis and muscle weakness episodes so I couldn’t even attend class. I’ve been at home ever since getting my bachelors with GCU online. We still don’t have an answer for the episodes

Because I couldn’t be in college campus anymore I now go to doctors appointments in New York that my auntie takes me to do we can look for an answer. I’ve seen a nurse practitioner in neurology and I got a MRI to look st the structure of my brain and a EEG to look for seizures both came out normal. I’ve also seen a cardiologist who tested me with a heart monitor which came out normal. I am waiting for an appointment with the neurologist but we keep having set backs. But I am getting somewhere and they have all been lovely and I’m more than greatful for my auntie.

As I’ve been home I’ve also been continuing with therapy online. Apparently when I was getting tested for Autism they also tested for OCD and I score really high. High enough for a potential diagnosis but they never diagnosed me. My therapist thinks I have OCD not only because of my results but because of my mental health struggles I tell her about.

I am currently considering medication for OCD since nothing I’ve been doing has been helping and my therapist thinks it’s the best option. But I’m scared if getting medication for OCD and having a OCD diagnosis will prevent me from getting physical help. My therapist and other doctors I’ve seen lately don’t think my episodes are a mental problem but I’m scared if the doctors in New York might think so.

I know this is a lot and thank you so much for reading this if you did. If you’re able to answer this: do you think I should be worried about getting an OCD diagnosis because if the doctors will dismiss me? If so what should I do? Thank you so much

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It's been a long time since I last visited the site. How have you all been? Hoping you all are doing things that bring smiles to your faces. What things have you done for yourselves/others that you are proud of? Please share your stories in comments if you like!

I've been pretty well (so long as no one FORCES me to leave the house, wear masks or get vaccines). I'm really content to be a shut-in. I've been enjoying watching a lot of livestreaming events, Kitty cuddles: when she's not too wrapped up in being outdoors: Either in the outdoor kitty enclosure or a brief escape into the backyard (hopefully supervised),to chase insects. She will be 2yrs old in August(5 days before my birthday) ALREADY! At her recent checkup last month, vet didn't have anything bad to report. Yay! My petite little girl weighed in at just over 7lbs...A little shocking!

Somethings I'm kinda proud of:

I've been doing pretty good SURPRISINGLY, with controlling my impulsive spending habit these last 6 months. Although yesterday, I did splurge & buy my self an EARLY birthday gift.

A tk for a zoom event... ABC soap opera fan here! ALL MY CHILDREN- CAST REUNION! Yes, FT. the fabulous Susan Lucci! WOOHOO! I'm excited Haven't seem these guys since AMC went off air over 10 yrs ago! My momma & I watched together(mid 90's-2001) when I was home from school. I miss you MOMMA XOXO!

Also wanted to share, I've been writing a bit- amateur, but do enjoy writing freely-what wants to come out...MY EXPRESSION! Posted my first piece 4 week ago: A mother's day/birthday gift for my mom. A poem/letter to her! Now working on part 2 poem piece _which will be my 6th piece hopefully... I'd like to share here with you( If allowed) when I'm done with it.

Untill then, Be Well. Take care of YOU!

Please do as many things you can that make you smile....Dancing For JOY!