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I feel like I've put in a lot of healing work to get where I am now. Then again, I feel like there are things that I don't acknowledge. The reality of #SexualAbuse and #SexualAssault are too much for me to accept at times. The #EmotionalAbuse is a little easier for me to cope with I guess because there isn't that much shame associated with it. With the sexual abuse I feel so ashamed because it was a family member that abused me in both cases. Emotional abuse is somewhat easier to deal with because I can better see how it has effected me and I can work through it.

The sexual abuse however is a different story. I also struggle with healthy communication. Whenever I am ever confronted with something difficult or something that makes me feel ashamed or guilty, I instinctively shut it down. I refuse to talk and develop a f**k you attitude. I know that it isn't healthy and it's rude to ignore people but sometimes I get so overwhelmed sometimes that I just refuse to confront it.

Yes I know that shutting down is no longer serving me but I still find myself doing it. Growing up I learned to keep to myself and I guess that's why I struggle with communication. The shame of sexual abuse is so overwhelming sometimes that I feel like I'm drowning. I know that the shame and guilt aren't mine to bear but I still have a lot of internal conflict. So my question is, how do I resolve this? If I know all this then why can't I just move on? Part of me feels like I may never be over it but I want to finally be happy and healthy. How do I overcome the past so I can live my life?

#SexualAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #PTSD #Childhoodtrauma #SexualAssault #Healing #needhelp #checkin #BipolarDisorder #borderlinepersonaliydisorder #MightyTogether #selfharmsurvivor #suicideattemptsurvivor

I’ve been so anxious I can’t sleep even though I’m tired. I’ve read other strategies and I am currently trying nature sounds. Do you have any additional coping skills that could help me? Thanks in advance.

#Anxiety #PTSD #Insomnia #AbuseSurvivors #checkin #triggered

I’ll have to face an abuser and I could use some words of inspiration or encouragement. Been anxious and preoccupied. Not in a productive way. I appreciate all your comments in advance. Thanks.

#PTSD #SexualAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #Anxiety #MightyTogether #help #checkin

With #BipolarDisorder I can't tell if I'm up or down but I feel like my moods are all over the place. I feel usually frustrated probably because I have to face my abuser soon which will trigger the #PTSD which could possibly result in #Dissociation . I have worked really hard to heal and stay away from toxic people. Now I feel like I'm being set back. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder only complicates things. I already have difficulty with my emotions and being triggered will not help. My #Anxiety is off the charts. I know I am safe and that my fiancé won't let anyone hurt me but it's the thought of being in his presence one more time. I just don't know what to do, my friends are saying rest and be gentle with myself but that seems impossible right now. Honestly, I hope this doesn't push me to #Selfharm because I promised myself I would never do that again. I guess I just need words of encouragement and comfort right now. Thanks guys.

#Childhoodtrauma #SexualAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #SexualAssault #needhelp #checkin

My anxiety is really high. Thanks 😊

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My anxiety has had me on the verge of a panic attack. I worry about every little thing now. And yet, I feel like accomplishing great feats. The anxiety fuels my manic energy. I am not as agitated as I normally get which I guess is a good thing. I am not snapping at people. So I don't feel bad about doing so. I've been doing some reading about anxiety and mania, and it doesn't really help. How can I get this under control? Thanks.

#Mania #Anxiety #AnxietyAttack #BipolarDisorder #help #checkin #MentalHealth

Things are moving at a pace most people can't keep up with. Their inability to keep up only fuels my energy. And yet, my anxiety is high. I want to go out, I am tired of staying indoors. This seems to be a contradiction. You would think that my anxiety will keep me inside. But no, I am getting antsy just sitting here and want to do something, anything. The faster I type, the more energetic I become. It's almost like it's unbridled. I had to force myself to sleep last night. I tried to stay calm but that didn't really work. I don't know if I'll get decent sleep tonight. I feel wired, like there's something inside me that is making me feel this way. My fiancé says I'm like a Jack Russel. I just have boundless energy. I feel enlightened and have a renewed desire to continue learning languages, religious exploits and I am talking at pace that people say they can't understand me. Personally, I do not see it that way. The more I type the more I want to say. Does writing your way through a manic episode help you or make it worse? I find writing to be a great coping mechanism. I wish you all the best and I hope that you accomplish all you want. Stay strong my friends:)

#BipolarDisorder #Manic #Mania #Energy #Writing #coping #help #checkin

When you’re experiencing mania, do you do things you normally wouldn’t? Like I tend to get hyper focused on stuff and block things out without knowing it. I’ll feel the need to go out though I’m experiencing anxiety at the same time. Don’t know if I should be worried or not and just go with it. There’s so much I wanna do. #BipolarDisorder #Mania #Manic #WritingThroughIt #checkin #help #Anxiety

Feel like I’m coming out of severe depression with slightly manic symptoms. Have anxiety. Manic in the sense that I can’t stay still and get bored easily. Depressed in the sense that I do not have high energy. What can I do to make sure I don’t go into a full blown manic episode? I typically get anxiety when my moods change. What should I do to stay productive yet keep myself relatively calm? I struggle with controlling my manic episodes. The depression I can deal with better than the mania. What works for you if you have Bipolar Disorder? Trying to manage it with medication and therapy but I usually process my trauma in therapy. Because I also have PTSD from trauma. Thanks for your input. I appreciate it.

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