quarentinethoughts

I haven’t seen my mom for over a year , she has not been feeling well for the past few weeks and I worry so. She took a Covid test and it came back negative thankfully but she is till not back to being 100%. My part of town is now back in the extreme risk category , I wonder when/ if another full lock down will happen.
The incidents of racism towards
The racism towards the Asian community torment me . Every day the violence continues ... my mom lives in the Bay Area I made her promise me she would not go out . I’m lucky I live where I live as people for the most part are friendly but you can’t let your guard down fully.
I had a job a couple of months ago, I accepted the position so I could save money to help my mom out as she has income besides unemployment ,and save money to pay for tuition but it ended up being toxic . They let me go after a couple of weeks making up excuses and reasons to justify their decision , I feel like on a certain level it based on unconscious bias and descrimination they burned me and It totally screwed me up and I ended up failing a class trying to make the effort to meet their needs , in short I wasn’t able to
Meet the requirements to graduate on time . I need to find income to so I can come back and finish up my remaining credit , just makes me so angry how people are and how they can be. #COVID19 #quarentine #quarentinethoughts

Lately I’ve been in a funk . I just have no motivation to do anything , I feel like my days consist of eating puttering around and sleeping . There’s
Much to do and plan for and nothing ever gets done . Last summer at the start of quarentine the days seemed to drag on an on and trying to find enough things to do was difficult and now it just doesn’t seem as if there are enough hours in the day . I’m torn between wanting to connect with others and hiding away from the world. I have been alone for a year through all this ... thought I was handling everything pretty well but I guess I’m sadder and angrier than I realized .

Found out we’re still gonna be on quarantine and even though we’re “better then we were 6 weeks ago” we still have to take pre cautions, which I agree with. But this shit is giving me such anxiety tonight I could cry. #Anxiety #quarentinethoughts

#Parenting #quarentinethoughts

I don’t think I can do this much longer, I can’t. I feel trapped...I can’t handle being with my family anymore. I can’t, I’m stuck on repeat...wake up..eat..watch tv all day in bed...and bed. Then all over again, this pandemic has ruined my job opportunity. At least I was getting away from my family with that, idk what to do, I’m so bored and annoyed of them. Small house so I can’t exactly go anywhere other then my room, and it’s been to cold to just sit outside.. idk what to do. This is severely affecting my mental health. Can’t do anything about it because none of my family cares. #quarentinethoughts #pandemic #lost #tired #help