TW: Eating Disorder Relapse
I had to be weighed in hospital on Friday, when my levels dropped, so I had to be pumped with fluids. I don’t know whether to be happy or sad. They came back into the room with sad eyes and just said ‘Your BMI is now 16.1′. I feel completely heart-broken to end up in the same situation I was in half a year ago.
Also feel completely fat because I’ve just ate a couple of cookies. First thing I’ve ate in six days and I feel disgusting...
I know what’s triggered this complete and utter fall back, it involves trauma, trauma memories, staying on a section after a year and a half being in this rehab and a complete breakdown in family relationships.
Either way. This is where I am at the moment.
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