Schizoaffective Disorder

My parents don’t understand what I am going through. I have been in and out of mental hospitals and they make it seem like what I am going through isn’t as serious as it actually is; it is extremely serious and should not be taken lightly. I have been in a mental hospital more than 10 times. My older sister, I don’t get along with her and she told my mom to lock me up in a mental hospital. One of my aunts told me I have nothing to be depressed over because I don’t pay any bills. People don’t understand how much I have been through. Bullying, people being rude to me. I have been rejected and called ugly my whole life. One of my cousins even told me I crave attention. Very rude and disrespectful. Also my cousins say I am not their age and yet they talk to people my age. I don’t want them in my life but I do know I deserve so much better than them all

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I've got an appointment at noon for my next invega injection. It's definitely time. My depression and anxiety are so awful. I'm also going to pick up a script that my psych doctor wrote for me on Monday. The pharmacy is in the same building. I asked him for something as needed for anxiety and the best he could offer was propranolol. I've been on it before but don't know why I stopped. I guess we'll figure it out. Anywho

My scalp on top of my head has a few really painful scabs. I had pauley look at it last night and she was like whoa. I've been scratching my scalp but I didn't think I scratched it where the scabs are.

In other news... I'm going to an event on the 19th that I'm very excited about. There is a local art school/studio. They have 4 floors of space for students. They're doing an open house on the 19th and serving free wine and pizza. They have a sculpting studio with a kiln! I've been trying to find somewhere I can do some sculpting. This might be just what I need.

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