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Good evening everyone #mywrite #Childhoodtrauma #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SchizoaffectiveDisorder

I’m sick of living in a country that is run by misogynistic pigs and enabling women, i’m tired, so tired #needrest #Selfcheck i always feel better though, after i write x

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Good evening everyone i hope my friends across the pond enjoyed the total eclipse

It was 1999 (i think!) when i experienced mine; the environment changed, nothing, no air, no birds, dogs, wind, it was unbearably airy and something to behold isn’t it ❤️🗣️💥
Putting pen to paper again below xx #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SchizoaffectiveDisorder thanks mum & dad 💩🗣️💥

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is YodaBoo2024. I'm here because my child has been suffering from debilitating depression, anxiety, and schizoaffective disorder for 6 years now. She has seen every type of doctor for every type of ailment. She has a psychiatrist, talks with a psychologist twice a week, takes antidepressant and antipsychotic medication, has ketamine treatments (either pill or IV) once a week. Her paranoia is getting worse and I fear she may becoming schizophrenic. As her primary caregiver, I'm exhausted. I'm retiring this year and her father and I need to make a plan for her going forward. She's not on disability - I've always had the hope she would find the right combo of healthcare that would enable her to lead a normal, productive life. She's now 24 and has not been able to attend a technical school or a university or hold a job or even volunteer. She is lonely and losing hope that she will ever find happiness which is heartbreaking to me and creates fear that she will take her own life one day if she does not make progress. is there anyone else out there like me?#MightyTogether

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Struggling today sorry guys #Takingcontrol #MentalHealth #help

This post may not be liked by some people because of triggers so i’m going to try to explain to you guys why iv reached out to my local provider to section 5 me.

Why on earth, i think many people would say to me on other networks, so why?

My husband of 20 years deserves to have his wife back,
My eldest child can come off annual leave and get stronger again so he can get back into work as my mania is chronic at the moment.
My middle child 27, is desperately trying to sleep for work and he can’t focus in work because im really bad late at night and just snap. He never interrupts but im ashamed and it’s affecting our relationship and his own mental health.

My third child is struggling because she absorbs all this pressure. She does intervene and it ends up even worse, that’s not fair to her.

When your child tells you they don’t remember who mum was and they want her back is soul destroying to hear, but painfully true.

Today may not be a good day, the past 9 months have blended into a complete crisis and cycle of panic, mania, anger, sometimes delusional thoughts i’m shouting them all over the house!

I’m tired, they tired and as a family we have decided that having a 28 day release from the house, will really help me, get me seen by the professionals i clearly need and my family will no longer have to take on this horrendous pressure.

I am waiting on a telephone call, it’s not going to happen overnight and it’s bank holiday weekend, as soon as i can get some help, we will all benefit.

I’m 53 my blood pressure is dangerously high and i am constantly worried about having a stroke, or something bad is going to happen.

#MentalHealth #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #SchizoaffectiveDisorder
#samaritansuk

I’m lucky i have my family to support me, sometimes that’s not possible for people, Samaritans are there night or day and all volunteer lead, would be my first port of call other than my family 🗣️💪✨

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2012 Catalyst

#BpDbeautifully #PTSD #SchizoaffectiveDisorder

I genuinely did not realise how poorly my mental health was until this time, 2012 is the year i lost a parent, my dad.

Born into #domesticvioulenceabuse gives you trauma from the womb.

Im working through the change of life, which in itself is an absolute smack in the gut.

My biological family came to me after the funeral, i had moved home so it wasn’t straight after, maybe a couple of years; they said they were worried about me and that they think i needed mental health support.

Im the youngest child, i was 42 at that time, my eldest sibling is 11 years my senior, then 9 years and finally the 3rd child is 4 years older than me.

Iv survived suicide of my children’s father, built myself back up, met someone new and got married, 20 years this year.

I took their advice, i went and got help, top and bottom of the situation is, after about 7 sessions of CBT therapy, i came to building my family trauma tree!

The Catalyst for everything, smack bang centre stage was my mum, really desperately sad. They couldn’t handle me, i was brutal and broken.

I walked away from my entire biological family, i have my husband and 3 amazing children, i had my 3rd child to my husband and she glued my little island (as i like to call us.)

Hardest toughest decision i made, i think it’s 5 years now and nothing, my mum refuses to have anything to do with me or my family.

She used to leave us behind when we were little, iv spent christmas eves hiding under bridges with my brother so our dad couldn’t find us, my 2 older brothers bore the brunt of dads DVA but mum, she had her jaws wired, that just gives you a little insight.

I wet the bed until i was 11 years of age, i couldn’t concentrate in school because i was always worried my mum would be dead or left us again.

Theres years of layered abuse, obviously i’m a survivor, but im not going to lie, it made me bitter, i was strong and i have stood on my own 2 feet from as far back as i can remember.

I will talk again soon, thanks for reading xhx #BpDbeautifully

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Apathy

Hey all! I suffer from schizoaffective disorder (depressive type). My biggest struggle is apathy. I had a mini breakdown in September, and was given Invega. The Invega has worsened my apathy and I’m at the point where I’m almost fully bed ridden. I can’t find pleasure in anything, even video games (which used to be my only escape), and so I awake each day only to be tired, apathetic, and literally*** unable to enjoy anything. I feel hopeless. Does anyone have any advice?

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Tw I talk about sexual assault

I've got schizoaffective, BPD, disaccociative identity disorder, sexual aversion disorder, and PTSD. I have nightmares about my kids. I lost both of them because I trusted the wrong person. I dream that I am struggling to get my kids back and they scream that they don't know me. It's been 14 years since I last saw them. My daughter turns 18 this November. I've been thinking about reaching out to her but I want her to not feel pressured to talk to me so I don't think I will. But that's my PTSD. I was also sexually assaulted at gunpoint when I was 18. I'm terrified of loud sound especially fireworks. 5 years ago I was sexually assaulted by a guy who claimed that he was bisexual but he wasn't. He did some really fucked up shit to me. Now I can't even talk about sex without wanting to wretch my guts out. I'm asexual now. It's better this way.

Mental health is really complicated and messy sometimes. We just gotta get through each day.

#SchizoaffectiveDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #MentalHealth

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