smallsteps

Yesterday I had a day of poor choices: I essentially gave up control of my mind and body to the cravings and desires stirred in me by junk food. I told myself it would be a one day event and then I could get back to strict control of myself.
My biggest challenge was not purging. I managed that but I think mostly because I was careful to not be alone for long enough to do anything. I'm calling that a win.
But it has left me feeling different: nothing too noticeable just a feeling like I've succeeded in one thing. A feeling that maybe if I can do that I can regain control.
Don't get me wrong, I didn't maintain perfect control today, I ate some marshmallows, a few rich tea biscuits and overate at tea. But not hugely, and not enough to make me regret it.
I managed to stop my self just enough that I have no actual regrets from today.
I'm proud of myself. And it's such a rare feeling that I didn't know the words for how I've been feeling until 30 seconds ago when they flowed from my fingers!
I want to feel proud again tomorrow night, although I would like to go to bed tomorrow night and not let my depression win that battle, but that's a fight for tomorrow. For now I am proud to have had some control over my eating today! #Gettingthere #smallsteps #tinysteps #EatingDisorders

#CheerMeOn

I managed to overcome my anxiety of being in social setting with people I don't know very well. I almost canceled due to a lot of anxiety looming over. But after chatting with a friend and receiving a pep talk with her, I made myself push through, shower, and just show up. I practiced self talk and listening to the radio while on my way there. I ended up having a really good time. Maybe this victory will make a path to less and enjoying more in life.

#Anxiety #Depression #smallsteps

Have a shower and leave the house. #Pushingmyself #smallsteps #positive

#52SmallThings

Hi. I’m trying to make my goals more manageable. So for this week I’m giving myself 2 small steps. The first is to visit the library in our new city. The second is to call about a possible volunteer orientation program.

I seem to get my medical necessities and basic life needs taken care of each week. But when it comes to mental health or personal fulfillment goals I run out of energy. So I’m going to give myself one or 2 small steps to make each week. I think this forum may help too. #smallsteps seem to be a good path if I want to feel better emotionally. Let’s give it a shot!