Well So the last week of #2021 is aoung us. Hopeful this will be a good last week. I think maybe we should all just take the time to think back to all the good things about this year. Be happy on that. #Depression
I just feel kind of tired and just feeling blah. Kind of a boring gloomy day. Yeah winter.
I AM grateful for today. The Ease and Grace that I was hoping for yet not expecting was very welcomed. I was able to be out of bed, did some housework and chilled watching a movie and a basketball game online with the kids. I am grateful that my children aren’t too worried about gifts and things. It’s different now that they are teens. Thankfully cash is in, and it doesn’t require wrapping 😎🤣☃️🎄❄️🤣. Hope you got some merry love today ~ and if not…I’m send some your way🎄❤️❤️❤️ # fibro #MightyMoms #2021 #Love #EASE #Grace #Christmas #ChronicIlless #braveface
Self care has this stigma that in order to have self care, you have to DO it. My simple idea on the topic is to first surrender to who it is you ACTUALLY are. Focus on loving yourself so immensely that any other task to enlighten or strengthen this love will come naturally. I am aware and sensitive to the difficulty with practicing the above words. It can be tough to love yourself especially when you find no reason to. In all of reality though- we all have a greater purpose and soul we could ever be able to fathom. One step at a time- one loving act of kindness towards self goes a long way.
Love and light to everyone.
2019 was my year of redemption. I took a leap of faith to enter the entertainment industry. I invited hundreds of friends to a farewell party. I left cold dreary Texas heading to sunny California. The sky was sea blue. Swaying palm trees. The energy was different. I was in Beverly Hills, it felt like home! My first week there I met a childhood idol. Actress from Young and The Restless. She was kind, warm, took a phot with me and handed me her business card telling me to stay in touch! I just knew my ship had come in! Unfortunately, I sanded before I could sail. The person I lived with lived in such a substandard housing I was ill within a week. A truck sideswiped me. But insurance company blamed me. I was there 4 weeks and it was the most expensive unproductive adventure ever.
I found myself return to Texas like a shameful dog with my tail between my legs. Less than a week back my house suffered severe water damage. I won’t bore you with all the minutiae. But one, contractor started work, stole supplies and left. Two, insurance company wouldn’t help and left us for dead. Three, packing company allowed all the contents of our house, 2,500 sq. ft. to be riddled with mold mildew. Four, my house sat for months unrepaired, due to water soaked flooring mold and mildew to took over. Five, remediation company conducted cleaning but cut out the wrong wall, leaving mildew in wall. Oh, during this I became greatly ill. Discovered mold/fungus growing in my sinus close to my brain. I had two extensive surgeries in 2019, and 2020. Six, moved into an apartment, 4 months in almost had a nervous breakdown. Correct, I did. I was borderline suicidal. Noisy neighbors and drugs on property. My family constructively returned to our house. Still with mold growing.
After second surgery my cardiologist (experienced stroke during first surgery) and ENT surgeon insisted I not return to home. From the second surgery, I went to an hotel for 2 weeks to recover. Next, we moved into another “brand new” apartments. That was December 2020 and I slipped into the 7th level of hell. Inferior apartment, $2k, has all but killed me.
As of February 16-20, the hard freeze of the century hit Houston and I didn’t have electricity and water fir 4 days. I thought my heart would stop.
As I’m composing this I’m greatly sleep deprived, uncertain if my house will sale (on the market). Of course we’re forced to sell far below market value. In need of new housing, this accessible/handicap unit has multiple violations but management refuse to repair, only releasing us from our lease. I’m unable to work and so stressed I’ve broken out in blistering hives.
I share all of this to get it out of my head. This past week was a wake up call. Due to the freeze many homes suffered burst pipes, loss of basic needs and loss of life. Today I was driving and became so overwhelmed I pulled off the road to grieve. I felt hopeless and helpless. But I’m still thankful and grateful. It ain’t over!
I relapsed, I broke down, I curled up on the floor in the closet. Wanting to die or disappear. I suppressed all the emotional stress of the past year. In laws living with me, overworked, constant pain everyday.. I didn’t take care of myself, now I feel I have to start over. #Relapse #Depression #Anxiety #2021 #Selfcompassion
Hello my #MightyTogether followers!! How are you? I have some exciting news 🗞 I just submitted my first story of #2021 The topic of my story is on my condition of #Hydrocephalus acceptance and #BodyPositive issues!!! I am excited!!! #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #CheckInWithMe #CheerMeOn #BrainSurgery
A new year is here.
Will it be a good year, a difficult year, a happy year, a sad year? One thing is certain, none of us really know.
This time last year, none of us knew challenging 2020 would be. I doubt a rampant, infectious virus, creating a global pandemic, was forefront on our minds. The year has read more like a movie script rather than real life. The kind of script you feel relieved is fiction.
I love this quote from Martin Luther King Jnr; “You don’t have to see the whole staircase, you just have to take the first step”
That’s it! I just need to step into the 1st January 2021 and take each day one at a time, step by step. The details, the plans, the hopes, dreams, twists and turns will unravel as I go.
If you'd like to listen to more of my thoughts on this topic, check out my Podcast Episode on Medical Musings With Sam. Link is below and you can listen on any Podcast app.
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Wishing you all a Happy 2021! I have hope that we will get through it the same way we got through 2020. 💕
🥳 Happy New Year Mighty family!!
This is a post I saw and I wanted to share it.
There is something about going from December 31st to January 1st, even though it’s just another start of a day at 12:00am, the idea of a new year provides some type of hope.
I hope 2021 treats all of you kindly and that wonderful things come your way. 2020 was a really tough year, but we made it. Stay safe and healthy everyone 😊❤️
#MentalHealth #Disability #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #RareDisease #Parenting #MightyTogether #CheckInWithMe #DistractMe #NewYear #2021 #WhereMyMindIs
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