Stroke

Care taking my mother for two years and so, ever since she had a stroke and her left leg and hand wouldn't work. Having lost my father(verbally n physically abusive father with whom I couldn't have a good closure, not understanding he was dying) before years ago, the pain of grief feels so scary! Already going through stress and worry about different things of my life, I often wonder if I will be able to handle it. I often distract myself, but today when I saw her pale, helpless face.. something broke inside me thinking about the inevitable. Financial issues hover over this situation, and I, being depressed for a long time, cannot help but feel helpless. I have felt this helplessness before, just last week! last time it stressed me so much! today. sadness! Though, didn't want to stay stuck there. Have been reading a book with tools to manage depression, maybe from there got the inspiration think about what I can do to make things a little better. While caretaking my difficult-to-handle mother, I often feel overwhelmed, frustrated, Irritated and whatnots. It gets too much at times. Today after so many years of not really praying to God, I asked God for some strength to go through it all, and It kinda works as well. While my modern mind doesn't let me believe in what has written in the holy book, I find solace and strength in his name. And while navigating through this difficult time, I am thinking about journalling each and every (even if small) achievement, with the hope that they will keep me going, inspire me, show me I can do it, or maybe even console in times of real grief, mourning and "Did I do my part?" moments.

What Is Speech Therapy?
Speech Therapy is the assessment and treatment of communication and swallowing disorders, performed by a speech-language pathologist through the use of a wide variety of techniques and exercises like communication devices, picture cards, modeling, and play based activities. It helps people of all ages improve their ability to speak, understand language, express themselves, and swallow safely. Last but not least, Speech Therapy can be used to help improve and treat a wide variety of conditions and disorders such as speech language delays, voice disorders, and difficulties resulting from conditions like stroke or traumatic brain injury.

Hi, my name is head86. I'm here because I have had 6 episodes of transient expressive aphasia that I believe are caused by migraine, although a number of neurologists are trying to convince me that they are being caused by TIAs. The aphasia symptoms do not last longer than 60 minutes during each episode. I have been trying to find a neurologist that can make a clinical diagnosis in determining whether these episodes are migraine related or symptoms of stroke.

#MightyTogether #Migraine

This is actually Waterlily but no matter what email I sign on with, I can't get to my personal account moniker.

Hypogammaglobulinemia describes low levels of immunoglobulins in your body. Immunoglobulins are antibodies that fight germs like viruses and bacteria that can make you sick. Having low levels may increase your risk of infections and other diseases. Antibiotics, immunoglobulin replacement therapy and stem cell transplant are potential treatments. I get Chemical Asceptic Meningitis whenever I get an IVIG Infusion. I have very low IgG1 and IgA's in my blood. That in turn creates almost untreatable Pneumonia, Bronchiectasis, cancer, and organ failures. There are only two immunologists in Minnesota. Fairview University of Minnesota and Plymouth Minnesota. I got IVIG infusions for years without issue and then one day I started getting Chemical Asceptic Meningitis within a day or two of IVIG administration. After not taking any for 5-6 years, I tried it again. The first infusion went well except for a little headache. The second required emergency hospitalization because it causes the lining on my brain to swell and then I go downhill fast. This information doesn't always make it to the doctor's attending me from the emergency room. I have to wait to talk to the doctors directly and at that point I can barely speak. I can only go to one hospital for that reaction, and there's only a couple doctor's there that know how to treat it. It starts with a lumbar puncture to test the spinal fluid. I think that they test for high white blood cells and other information. So far I've healed with their assistance. One of these times I won't be as lucky. I am off any type of IVIG Infusions now, but I know I will need to get IVIG Infusions again when I get too many infections and, organ failures or cancer. I've also had a hard life from childhood on up. Almost my entire family struggles with mental health issues. My mom had lupus as I do. A Rheumatologist told me it was inherited. I have a daughter with some early symptoms that I've been keeping my eye on. I will help guide whenever I feel I have knowledge that might help. Bless all your hearts through your struggles. I'm currently in the hospital healing from a bilateral L4-5 decompression lumber spine surgery. I have a wonderful care team and my daughter is here when she is able. She's carrying a 4.0 in college and I'm so proud of her. She has 3 types of epilepsy. Finally she found an Epilepsy doctor who knew exactly what medicines she needed to control them. She occasionally has break through mild seizures, but shes finally able to function. She had a stroke last month at 51 years of age and was temporarily paralyzed. Our lives are a journey. That is how we look at ours. It helps immensely. This is an informational post in case someone can use this information. I'm here while recovering from surgery. Feel free to reach out any time. It may take me a little while to reply, but I will do my best. Bless you all on your life journeys. #Hypogammaglobulinemia #Epilepsy #Stroke #Immunedisorders

Thomas asked a question in response to my poem “Misunderstood.” What can we do to alleviate the problem of being misunderstood? The answer to such a broad topic is beyond the scope of this reply. Instead, I will confine my remarks to the reason I posted “Misunderstood” in the first place.

Posting “Misunderstood” was a knee-jerk reaction to my belief that my previous poem, “Haunting,” was misinterpreted. When my writing seems to evoke confusion rather than understanding, I become deeply frustrated. I started writing in earnest because I was experiencing symptoms of depressive psychosis and I wasn’t able to communicate that to my therapists through our conversations. When a session was over, I always felt that my file had been confused with someone else’s, because what my therapists said I was experiencing was milder than what my reality was. When a person experiencing depressive psychotic symptoms becomes suicidal, being misunderstood isn’t simply invalidating. It is life threatening when you have been buried alive, in desperate need of oxygen and a shovel, and the therapist keeps walking over your grave with a flashlight, thinking he can lead you out of the darkness. The isolation you feel in those moments is lethal, because you understand that if he could help you, he would have a shovel. If you truly mattered, he would have a shovel. When my writing is misinterpreted, I return to that place where the only person who can help me brought a flashlight to a shovel fight, because I failed to explain my situation clearly.

When the flashback goes, what passes for a rational state for me returns. A previous poem, “Unread,” talks about the risks of sharing writing. This is one for me. I accept this as a consequence of posting my work. I also acknowledge that many different interpretations of a poem are valid. Finally, I may simply be a bad writer. “Bad” means that I am trying to communicate specific things with my writing, and when the interpretation is the opposite of my intention, I have failed. It is probably an error on my part to bring a “specific meaning” mentality into poetry, but the habit is deeply ingrained.

The central point of “Haunting” is that the past is the only thing that exists. The idea of “being present” wasn’t on my mind at all when I wrote it. If readers are inspired to practice mindfulness and presence because of the poem, that is fine. However, if a reader asserted that I intended to highlight the importance of presence and mindfulness with this poem, they would be wrong. I had no such intention. “We were ghosts already./Haunting our own lives” isn’t a warning. We don’t live in the future, and the present is only a dividing line between future and past.

I have been removing overgrown vegetation from my yard with a European style sickle. Using a sickle requires presence of mind. You consider where each stroke is going to end. If it is going to end inside your foot, you reconsider. To paraphrase Yoda, always your mind on what you are doing. Doing otherwise is dangerous. I feel a sense of accomplishment, but not while I’m focused on avoiding amputating my foot. The sense of having done something resides in the near past, with my memory of having done it, along with my regrets. I was cutting down stinging nettles without gloves. Also residing in the past is a note to myself: use gloves next time, if the future-becoming-the-past includes gloves.

#Depression #MentalHealth #PTSD #Trauma #Suicide #Disability

Hi, my name is brodysmom. I'm here because I am struggling with BPD, trauma and grief mostly. I recently lost sight in my right eye because of a stroke the grief from that is bringing up previous loss of my wife and making my anxiety, BPD and PTSD harder to deal with. I am a lesbian, I just wanted to get that out because I want to be truthful to all of you and myself.

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Migraine #PTSD #Grief