Suicidal Thoughts

I don’t feel like life is worth living anymore. I’ve fallen into this same exact pattern day in and day out. I use to have so much variety in my life with all the different things I did and now all I do say in and day out is sleep work come home sleep work….

I don’t know how to change this and it’s slowly killing me from the inside out. Mentally I’ve been more stable and I just hate living in this doldrums. And that’s why I don’t feel like life is worth living anymore if this is what I have to look forward to is absolutely nothing…

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Today is just a bad day today. I am missing my grandchildren and son today terribly. I haven’t been aloud to see my granddaughter since she was 10 months old, she is 4 now and my grandson I have seen once and he is 2. We weren’t even told when she was pregnant with him. Our youngest daughter told us after she saw it in FB.

I have apologized to him and his wife even though I have no idea what I have done to cause the estrangement. They will not tell me. My DIL is the one behind it. I’m glad my son learned from me to be supportive to his wife but I wish he would want to know the truth or tell me what happened or would try to reconcile.

I feel, whether right or wrong that I’m not living a wonderful life without my only grandchildren in it. It is killing me from the inside out. I physically and mentally can’t stand the pain any longer. Taking an out seems to be the only way to make it stop.

Been dealing with a deep depression and suicidal thoughts for weeks now. Was in the hospital but lied to get myself out it was so bad in there. Was getting worse. Having nightmares about killing myself, when I do actually sleep. I have had episodes in the past but never this bad. Trying so hard to get through this.

I just got out of a horrible hospital. I lied to get myself out. That place was making me worse. Still depressed and still have suicidal thoughts running through my head. I pray I can get myself through this.

I told one person that I was feeling suicidal lately because I have been but I have it under control and I'm staying safe. I knew I never should've opened up. She told someone else and now I'm gonna be getting evaluated to see if I need to be hospitalized yet again. I just wish I could run away from everything and everyone. #SuicidalThoughts #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety

hello 😑 i am down falled. I'm here because i have depression, suicidal thoughts