Validation
For years I have lived with a “fibromyalgia” diagnosis and numerous strange symptoms that come and go. Recently things have escalated and changed and bloodwork revealed the probability of autoimmune disease; my PCP is guessing lupus or sjogrens. For all these years I have felt and seen the disbelief of people close to me and them thinking I’m just being “dramatic” or anxious. My ex husband went so far as to tell me to not tell anyone I have fibromyalgia because it’s embarrassing. When I recently received the lab results that I am not in fact “being dramatic “, I felt like throwing up my middle finger to everyone who turned their back and brushed me off. My mother even told me that she thought I was just having anxiety issues. My psychiatry nurse pointed out it is like I am validated now, even though having an autoimmune illness is definitely not something anyone wants. I feel like after all these years I am not just being a whiny butt. Now will come the hard part of waiting to see a specialist, it’s months to get in and that part sucks. I don’t have a lot of people in my circle and this does feel isolating so I’m here to try and be proactive, try and keep anxiety about the unknown and off the wall symptoms down and connect with others who are in the same boat. #autoimmune #ADHD #Undiagnosed #whatswrongwithme
#SjogrensSyndrome #SystemicLupusErythematosus #RaynaudsPhenomenon