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First time back in the studio after a long season of depression #Effexor #Depression #Anxiety #creative #musician
Today it’s been 3 weeks since I’ve been feeling better. Long story but I came off Effexor too fast, crashed, lost my relationship, list my pet dog , close family member died. I have had 8 months off work with panic attacks and severe depression.
Once I got the dose right I instantly started feeling better. I found a job and have completed my first week with flying colours. Now the creatively is returning, I hear songs and lyrics in my mind and I need to get it out into a recording. My counseller said one of the markers of my mental health returning is a surge of creativity. Creatives need to be able to create, it takes huge amounts of energy and focus. Sometimes I spend 6 hours in the studio to finally admit the song I’m working on is just not that good.
Although I feel tired I’m going to set up a recording space in my cousins studio and see what comes out. I know that I need to relax and remove any pressure. Try to enjoy the process as much as possible. I’ve decided it’s more healthy to work a part time job and do music on the side - as opposed to full time and have all the pressure of financial, performance, promotion, record labels, touring, social media that it brings.
Wish me luck!
