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Okay, so I have recently come out as #Transgender (female to male) and with this, I decided I want to publicize my "Gender Envy Board" lol

People have always been curious about some of them, so, even though nobody asked I'm gonna explain some of them

The "Percy Jackson" book series: I can't explain it. I just feel a kind of #gendereuphoria when I feel the books Ranboo, Wilbur Soot, Troye Sivan: He's a very pretty boy. Yungblud: He's a very pretty boy and he's #comfy with it. He doesn't let people tell him how to dress simply because of how he identifies his gender Outfits: I really like the outfits and wish that I was #comfortable enough with society to wear them. If you have any more questions about anything I'd be #happy to answer them!!

#Anxiety

#Depression

#EmotionalOverload

#thinkingoutloud

#LGBTQ

#LGBTQAI

#learning

#Comfort

I don't really like to be alone. Noone does I think, right?
I'm an introvert, asocial and pretty difficult to get near to, type of person. I have exceptions tho eheh. If sense worthy people (rare), that have a hidden gem in them, I open up and become more comfortable.
I used to love my alone time but to be alone now make me feel empty and scared. Fear is ok. I can manage that but I really hate feeling empty. It make me feel like the last bit of humanity I have is slipping away.
I have few friends here that I absolutely adore but they all live kinda far and I can't meet them often because I don't drive here. People here are really wilde on the road 😨.
Literally: "rules of the road what?? Nahhh. I wanna cause an incident today". At times I think they think that way 😂.
I love my friends and they love me too so, when I feel alone, I remind myself that and I feel better. I send a msg to them whenever I miss them too much but I never talk about it XD ahahahahah I just ask how they are, what they are doing or I just send them a random hugs and hearts eheh.

Most of time I'm the cat in the picture 😅 but to be honest sometimes I really wish to just be the dog and have my own cat to just stay with me. But who would I call? Let's be sincere 😂🤣 ahahah. They are all busy and I respect that. I know life is never easy for anyone so I text them nice and funny things to make them smile instead of talking about me. Wrong I know (I shouldn't keep things in) but also GOOD because seeing them smile and be the confort they need make me happy eheh. I work weirdly I know ahahahaha but I love my weirdness.
I love myself 😊❤️ and those are some words I never thought I would ever be able to say about myself in the past. LOVE + MYSELF? Me? Hahaha.
Life have interesting turns 😄🤣😊❤️.
Kinda curious to see what happens next so I will keep living for now eheh

#Anxiety #Depression #MentalHealth #sharelove #thinkingoutloud #haveaniceday #smile #differentprospective