worldmentalhealthday2019

Today is World Mental Health Day. Everyone should always take care of their mental health. I have always dealt with artists depression as I called it but since my dad’s massive stroke I have dealt with GAD. Even then I know my artists depression was stemmed from coping with the fact my dad was disabled and the dynamic that had changed our family. Then eventually my moms passing 10 years ago. And eventually coping with the marital changes and challenges of my marriage. My husband has always had mental health issues stemming from when he was a child. He used to tell me about it and how he was treated for them. He coped with PTSD and anxiety all his life. And being chronically ill he has gone down the rabbit hole of coping with MDD and GAD as well as chronic illness PTSD due to being disabled and no longer able to work. If there is anything I have learned is that mental health does affect physical health but not all physical health is caused from mental health. You can have both, it’s not always in your head as they say. The stigma about mental health is sadly still unrecognized and under diagnosed. And more importantly under appreciated. It’s not about age either and always life experiences of what one has been through. There are a variety of reasons why people have mental health issues and no explanation why. No one should be treated differently because they can’t cope. And because of the stigma of mental health issues is the rise in suicide. Acceptance of it is key. There is more to life and you are always important so take care of yourself and whatever you coping with. Talk to someone, journal, draw and don’t forget to laugh along the way.
#worldmentalhealthday2019

Well, today is #WorldMentalHealthDay , and I would like to personally share where I’m at, because I believe the more people talk about it in a positive, proactive way, the better we can understand one another, and link arms being there for each-other in a better way. And find personal healing, along with better coping mechanisms (that’s fancy lingo for fighting it with TRUTH).
So, imma keep this short and sweet:

•Where I’ve Been:
Anxiety, Depression, Panic Attacks, Anorexia, Emotional Trauma

•Where I am Now:
Living in the TRUTH that these things don’t have a hold on me- and they don’t! I may be more prone to react to them in a negative way than other people, but they aren’t winning this round. Learning to live in freedom rather than being a slave to them. Bad days come and good days come, and the intensity and prolonging of the bad days is lessening- THANK YOU JESUS! I also see how I am not reacting to certain situations like I used to- YEAH!! It’s a peace that doesn’t make sense, because I “should” worry. At least, I used to!
Some call it healing, some call it living in recovery- call it what you will, that’s where I’m at!

•Where I Want To Be:
For too long, I didn’t have a healthy view on the future. It was an unattainable dream that I couldn’t reach, and the past was better and safer anyhow. NOW, however, I know that setting goals is healthy, and something that I can actually do.

I have given myself that permission.

I want to be in a place where I can take care of myself, regardless of the voices in my head telling me to give into anxiety. I want to take care of myself so good, that I am also able to take care of others (that’s a huge building block in relationships). I want to also continue to heal from bitterness and depression- WHICH I AM! YAY!! And to drink more water 😅

So yeah, that’s my mental health post contribution for today! Stay encouraged yourself, and end the stigma by talking about your own personal journey with a trusted friend, in your journal, or on here! Stay cool kids! 🤘🏼 #freedom

Today is the 3rd day in a row where I have been living in my pyjamas.

However, I am not counting this as a warning sign for another psychological break but instead a sign of recovery.

I have never been in the habit of changing into “normal” clothes (as normal as my clothes can be considered when you own a pair of awesome Adventure leggings ... amongst others) if no one is visiting me, and I have no where else to be.

I know that still sounds alarming but as an #Autistic with plenty of #MentalHealthProblems I don’t always want to associate with other people, so I stay at home quite comfortably with myself.

After all, I can experience enormous amounts of stress and subsequent fatigue on my own and without outside forces.

So every now and then I have a pyjama day.

I relax with my chosen Podcasts, and my cats; do a little house-keeping; have a bath; change my pyjamas; and then continue.

Admittedly, having several pyjama days in a row is unusual but I am still wrung out from an entire weekend of #SocialMasking combined with finally being on the upside of 2 months of #Insomnia and an 18 hour stint of #emotional #Psychological probing needed to file a PIP assessment form.

Frankly, my brain needs the isolation right now.