How To Get Out of Youe Head and Into Real Life
I have been in recovery from alcohol and drugs for almost 4 years now. I also struggled with anorexia and bulimia for years. I am now in recovery for everything, and life is getting better day by day.
I finally took a step back to see what everyone else saw. I have journaled regularly for years, and going back through them has been heartbreaking. A couple of months ago, I saw some pictures of me that actually scared me. I struggle witg body dysmorphia and have for a long time. Seeing those pictures, all I kept thinking was "This is not me, i don't look like that.' But it was me. I made a deal with myself that day that I was going to use the 12 steps in the same way I did for my addiction to help myself. I already knew what to do because I have already been in treatment multiple times. I started out slowly eating small but nutrition packed things, and eventually added til I was up to a safe BMI. I am "in the clear" now because my BMI is in the normal area. But that doesn't mean I'm healed and recovered fully. I still struggle. I have my days. But as long as I take it one day at a time, sometimes one hour at a time, I get through the toughest parts and can continue on with my life. I still don't like pictures and probably never will, but I'm ok with that as long as I can continue this journey of yoga, meditation, meetings, and processing my emotions instead of pushing them down and using negative things to cope. #MentalHealth #EatingDisorderRecovery #AnorexiaNervosa #freedom