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If I'm to much go finde less!

I have often been told "I am too much". Too much sick, too much temprament, to much pain, too many feelings, too much me...
I have believed this for far too long...
But that's total bullshit!
I am just right the way I am! And I am not to much I'm enough! And if you don't like it, there is the door baby. 👋

#Selflove #youareenough #iamenough #MentalHealth #spooniestrong ❤️

The illustration is from @illustratedbydana 🙏❣️

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Perfect Reminders that I Am Enough, Right When I Needed Them Most (Also: Quit Comparing Yourself to Others)

#Depression #Anxiety #compareanddespair #youareenough

“What you're doing professionally is nice, and all...but don't you think you should be doing more?”

No, that question did not come from a well-meaning but critical relative, teacher, or friend. It came from inside my own head...that nagging voice of self-criticism, of creeping insecurity that what I'm doing with my life – at least professionally – is not enough. That voice is nowhere near the constant companion to me that it was for many years, thankfully. But every so often it insinuates itself, unbidden, into my consciousness: when I'm feeling emotionally vulnerable or depressed in particular. (Those of us who have a history of depression and anxiety, not surprisingly, are particularly prone to alarmingly frequent visits from that inner critical voice. Fortunately, as I said, mine are not so alarmingly frequent in recent years. And when that voice makes itself heard, I know its message is not only thoroughly inaccurate, but serves no good purpose. Still, it can be difficult to tell it to be quiet, and to stop paying attention.

“You know, (a certain friend/acquaintance/colleague) is doing music like you, teaching and/or performing. But he/she has more gigs than you, and they sound more interesting and varied. And, (friend/acquaintance/colleague) is better-connected and better-known than you. You need to try to be more like him/her. The way you're doing this isn't the right way, compared to others.”

So the Demon of Comparing Myself Unfavorably to Others had been keeping me company, again, totally uninvited, during the first part of the summer of 2014. And then, right before July 4th, THIS happened. It was so much exactly what I needed right when I needed it the most that I actually journaled about it:

July 3, 2014

I was reading Jen Sincero's book You Are a BadA**: How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life (have I said I can't recommend this book highly enough??) over lunch at my gig (playing live music for a senior living facility in my community) yesterday, and two small but great things happened:

1) In the chapter Ms Sincero calls "Love the One You Is," about accepting yourself 100%, seventh on her list of key points is "Don't Compare Yourself to Others." "Comparison is the fastest way to take all the fun out of life," she says, and "deciding that someone else's uniqueness is better than your own isn't exactly being your own best buddy about things." And then THIS: "Can you imagine what our world would be like if our biggest heroes succumbed to the perils of comparison?...If the guys in Led Zeppelin compared themselves to Mozart? "Dude. That guy's huge. Way huger than we'll ever be and he doesn't even have a drummer. I think we should get rid of ours and maybe add some harps while we're at it."

OK, that made me GRIN -- not just because she mentions my all-time favorite band and one of my favorite classical composers in this example -- but because Ms Sincero totally reminded me that it's precisely because Led Zeppelin AND Mozart AND my other musical heroes and she-roes inspire me so profoundly that I've put music at the center of my professional life. My favorite musicians have made others happy through their music...and that's my purpose, too. You know how sometimes you just need a concise and powerful reminder of why you're doing what you're doing? That was it and it could not have been more perfect for me! (Oh, and the reminder to not compare myself to others...that's a very good thing too. I'm better than I used to be, but it's a work in progress...)

2) Right while I was still grinning about #1, the Activities Assistant for my favorite Alzheimer's Care Community came into the break room. She asked if I was planning to visit that community and I said I was, and she said "Then that's a good day! The music is just so great for everybody there, and that is just a wonderful service you're providing us." And as she pointed out, she doesn't usually say mushy emotional stuff like that unless she REALLY means it. PRICELESS.

So. Two little but powerful reminders right in a row that I am doing just what I'm supposed to be doing right a time I needed that! And I am sharing this here now, eight years later, to remind you that YOU, too, are enough. And please don't compare yourself to others. That way lies madness, and you are your own flavor of awesome. Even if you don't believe it, you are.


It's okay if you're not Super Mom...

Today I had a really bad flare (fibro) was so bad I could barely get out of bed. It was also the first day of school. I wasn't able to help my son get ready, or get up and take any photos of his first day of 4th grade. I laid in bed, curled up in pain, and listened as my husband helped him get ready, silently thanking him that he was able to be there for our son, and cursing myself that I was not. As I scrolled through social media (to distract myself from the pain) and saw all of the other mom's posts of their smiling children documenting their first days...I felt like an absolute failure. Sometimes I feel like I need to document every moment of his life, and if I don't, I'm a crappy Mom.

But you know what? I was able to give him a hug (even though it hurt), and wish him a fantastic first day. I did what I could, but I still felt like it wasn't nearly enough. I just feel like we have so much pressure to show the world we are perfect...and I need to get over it. I am NOT a perfect Mom. Most of the time, I wish I could be. I admittedly try to be. But I'm trying to be a little easier on myself these days; a little nicer to myself.

I just wanted to give a shout out to all of the parents out there that are struggling right now. It's okay that you're not perfect. Your kids don't want (or need) a "perfect" parent....they want and need YOU. Flaws and all. ❤ #fibroflare #notperfect #youareenough #Moms

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Lose me. I won’t beg to be chosen..

Be yourself. 😊Realize it’s ok to have others lose you in life, it’s ok, if they don’t choose to have you in their lives. You are enough. #Selfworth #PTSD #Depression #Survivors #BeYourself #youareenough

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You Are Enough

Those of us with chronic illnesses tend to get judged by other people. We know how we feel and that’s all that matters in the end. Don’t Let Anyone Dull Your Sparkle! I see you trying and you are enough just the way you are! HUGS ❤️ #ChronicMigraines #Migraines #ADHD #ChronicPain #OccipitalNeuralgia #Fibromyalgia #Anxiety #Depression #Pain #OnedayAtaTime #youareenough #cervicalspinedamage #DontLoseYourSparkle