chronic illess

I want to give you an eternal Thank You for always providing for me during my life. I live each day with the faith that you will always allow me the tools I need to not only survive but to thrive as well. I also want to thank you for making me stronger due to all the learning experiences I received. It doesn't matter whether I enjoyed them at the time, I still learned. You gave us free will, so it's up to us to live right, or we have to accept the consequences. All the knowledge I have gathered, I willingly take it with me and share with whomever may ask for it. If it be life experiences or knowledge of your word, I do my best. I also want to help all of the wonderful people who have already helped me along this journey and to the individuals who will help me in the future. I can remember certain things that have happened that I know we're miracles from you. I also believe that some of your Angels here on Earth have crossed my path a time or two. I thank you for those as well. Each and every day I am able to see the beauty in not only my surroundings but the people as well. I know in all this beauty lies great meaning and purpose.

I am also asking your forgiveness for all the foolishness and stupid things I've done in my life. From this day forward, I strive to be more responsible, and be a woman that can teach good instead of anything negatively.

Amen #ChronicIlless chronic pain #ChronicIllnessEDS #MentalHealth #PTSD #Abuse

Dear God
Enlighten-What's dark in me.
Strengthen-What's weak in me.
Mend-What's broken in me.
Bind-What's bruised in me.
Heal-What's sick in me.
and lastly ...
Revive-Whatever peace and love has died in me.
Amen
#ChronicIlless #AbuseSurvivors #CPTSD #ChronicIllnessEDS

I feel so sick and anxious and I want to cry. I just kinda need someone to talk to. #ChronicIlless #ChronicNausea #AnxietyAttack

Oh boy. I looked at my last actual update on here and man do I have a ton of stuff to talk about.

So first of all. I get those shots in my head once a month. It's pretty okay, but then I'm pretty much stuck in bed for the next 48 hours. Still worth it, though.

Next, I can officially say I've been to the ER now. Twice, actually. Both for tachycardia. The first time was terrifying because I was lying still and my heart rate was 165 and it wouldn't stop doing flips. But now I'm back on a beta blocker and doing okay. (That is thanks to my new cardiologist who is super awesome)

Uhhhhh I discovered that I'm allergic to a lot of foods. Especially peanuts which is hilarious because I hate peanut butter with a fiery passion. So wheat, corn, soy, sesame, milk, eggs, and peanuts are a big no no.

Speaking of corn. It's in everything!! For example, unless stated, citric acid and vitamin C both come from corn.

I'm on a mostly liquid diet now because of whatever GI issues I have. Speaking of, my gastric emptying study was yesterday. I don't have the results yet but I'm glad I finally have shit taken care of.

My thyroid is doing... something. I dunno. It's been a lot. I ended up getting an MRI today because they wanna see if my petuitary gland is going nuts. I honestly don't think so but whatever.

Uhhhh...I've been vaguely ill for the last 2ish months and at the beginning of March they did a CBC. My white blood cell count was around 14. So they had me do it again a week later, and it went down to 12ish. They thought that was acceptable because whatever PCR test they ran, nothing came up. Last week I did another CBC and the white blood cell count is 15, and they had me do another PCR test today. I have no obvious signs of infection, I just feel like crap.

And I started Lyrica a while back.

I think that's everything. I'm honestly too tired to tell right now, so I'll make another post if I remember more. #Fibromyalgia #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #Gastroparesis #ChronicIlless

So I didn't get as much sleep as I probably needed Monday night cause that was my last night with my best friend. He brought me to my daughter's when he got off work and I needed time to unwind and enjoy the quiet as they were settling down for the night. I believe I came up to my grandsons room where I sleep on the bottom bunk. My daughter-in-law's older pug also sleeps in this same room. That dog has NOT stopped snoring for more than 2 minutes tops for the entire night. I've shhed her, asked God to please shut that dog up, (not proud of this) but even threw a small stuffed animal at her twice. Coming back from a bathroom trip I even nudged her gently with my foot. Now I would never do this; but I honestly feel I could commit doggy homicide and completely lie about when Kayla wakes up and takes her out to potty. With a straight face and a dumbfounded look I could lie through my teeth and act the part of grieving her loss. Oh poor Sadie. It must have been your time to go to doggy heaven. Oh you poor poor thing! FOR SURE, I'M BUYING EAR PLUGS TODAY!!! Thank you all for listening to me vent some. I hope you all have a safe and blessed day 🙏