Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

A majority of my work, writing, posts are self serving therapy, references and reminders for future projects.And to remember, I will always process after the fact.I enjoyed editing and research when younger.Social media sites are a tool, a social encyclopedia of habits, dependencies and pathological behavior.A place for multiple views,disassociations come alive, even contradictory and can be thrown at a wall. Any interpretations from lurking, watchers, are subjective and inconsequential to me. Stop watching me, you wont get offended.I have spent years outside, in the day to day, grind of punching a clock. I no longer have that outlet,the internet is no different to me.There is no hiding, pretending or masking.I am exploring my new freedom and expressing myself, free from others confined judgements. I am use to being talked about, never confronted. No ego, just me. You can't make someone suffer and walk away unscathed. They weren't expecting me to know, realize, remember or find out, seriously.
Two plus two is four Bitch.

A majority of my work, writing, posts are self serving therapy, references and reminders for future projects.And to remember, I will always process after the fact.I enjoyed editing and research when younger.Social media sites are a tool, a social encyclopedia of habits, dependencies and pathological behavior.A place for multiple views,disassociations come alive, even contradictory and can be thrown at a wall. Any interpretations from lurking, watchers, are subjective and inconsequential to me. Stop watching me, you wont get offended.I have spent years outside, in the day to day, grind of punching a clock. I no longer have that outlet,the internet is no different to me.There is no hiding, pretending or masking.I am exploring my new freedom and expressing myself, free from others confined judgements. I am use to being talked about, never confronted. No ego, just me. You can't make someone suffer and walk away unscathed. They weren't expecting me to know, realize, remember or find out, seriously.
Two plus two is four Bitch.

I think people who hurt you the most and never apologize, believe your capacity is endless.If you never express yourself, your boundaries, values or feelings, you are never held to anything, by anyone. To believe you owe, no one an apology, to me is strange and extremely selfish.I have overapoligized, in situations where, I owed none. I have only had a couple adults in my life, actually apologize to me.I was told in therapy, look around and watch.Wow. I started that five years ago, noticing outside the home, as well. When strangers are kinder than your, support circles.Time to change circles. I apologize when wrong, when relevant and for times circumstances.I will not be apoligizing or punished by people, who have NEVER, been a part of my life or my home. Your perception is a reflection, manufactured chaos, and its time to stop projecting, own it and resolve it.

I think people who hurt you the most and never apologize, believe your capacity is endless.If you never express yourself, your boundaries, values or feelings, you are never held to anything, by anyone. To believe you owe, no one an apology, to me is strange and extremely selfish.I have overapoligized, in situations where, I owed none. I have only had a couple adults in my life, actually apologize to me.I was told in therapy, look around and watch.Wow. I started that five years ago, noticing outside the home, as well. When strangers are kinder than your, support circles.Time to change circles. I apologize when wrong, when relevant and for times circumstances.I will not be apoligizing or punished by people, who have NEVER, been a part of my life or my home. Your perception is a reflection, manufactured chaos, and its time to stop projecting, own it and resolve it.

The sun reflecting on the sheet of frost that is blanketing the roof of my car this morning. I live in the south where it's warm 90% of the time, so this is very unusual for us. Thought it was really cool, so I drew a heart with my finger and snapped a shot to capture the moment forever ✨️❄️✨️ Stay warm out there!

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