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Series to feel something #CPTSD #DBT #CBT #Netflix

I started a new series and It sparked some major tears, reflection and https://hope.The big C.Wow, I felt a mirror in her reaction to a https://diagnosis.And Im not comparing https://Cancer.I don't have a timeline, prognossis timeline or https://date.AVMs are rare and no two are https://alike.Same with genetic markers and https://abnormalities.I take solice in https://that.What if's.What if, I'll be fine, what if I thrive, what if I can rebound everytime? I lived in dred, fear, delirium, hypostate and failure to https://thrive.I try to give time to heal and each time, is https://different.There will be a day, I no longer visit, check in, monitor, but for now, my day to day, is still a https://struggle.I tell myself go and nothing https://happens.The struggle with that is https://mindblowing.I can sit and
wonder for hours, to no end, if I let https://it.I wasn't like this before, tired, all the https://time.I haven't had the opportunity to know, what relaxed is, safe, https://permanent.Living from room to room, unpacked then packed, it is https://surviving.I know now, https://why.I only felt secure, with living, when I was https://pregnant.I believe the hormones calmed https://me.I will feel it again, life, without the fear of https://dying.We all do.at anytime, so enjoy it.

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Series to feel something #CPTSD #DBT #CBT #Netflix

I started a new series and It sparked some major tears, reflection and https://hope.The big C.Wow, I felt a mirror in her reaction to a https://diagnosis.And Im not comparing https://Cancer.I don't have a timeline, prognossis timeline or https://date.AVMs are rare and no two are https://alike.Same with genetic markers and https://abnormalities.I take solice in https://that.What if's.What if, I'll be fine, what if I thrive, what if I can rebound everytime? I lived in dred, fear, delirium, hypostate and failure to https://thrive.I try to give time to heal and each time, is https://different.There will be a day, I no longer visit, check in, monitor, but for now, my day to day, is still a https://struggle.I tell myself go and nothing https://happens.The struggle with that is https://mindblowing.I can sit and
wonder for hours, to no end, if I let https://it.I wasn't like this before, tired, all the https://time.I haven't had the opportunity to know, what relaxed is, safe, https://permanent.Living from room to room, unpacked then packed, it is https://surviving.I know now, https://why.I only felt secure, with living, when I was https://pregnant.I believe the hormones calmed https://me.I will feel it again, life, without the fear of https://dying.We all do.at anytime, so enjoy it.

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Dinner#artheals #avm #CPTSD #justforshow

So, we went to https://dinner.My favorite https://spot.They had moved from where I https://live.The owners know my husband and all of his friends do frequent.
At the time I was sick, we went once a https://week.Then I, alone.one time, the owner stated" out cheating again". I was shocked, sitting with my https://son.How could someone say that, seriously, in front of my son? I said back, this, is my https://son.Excuse you.it was a https://joke.I gave a pass.But, It was, that day ,I knew,he was defaming me, big time, to anyone that would listen.

Flash forward eighteen https://months.The restaurant is at a new location, tragically they lost a family member, their son.my heart broke, they are good people and we, no longer https://frequent.Im happy they are healing.
I adored these https://people.They fed my family when, I could https://not.And I did not see the connection until tonight.

Immediately, I greet him, the owner, the staff and there are, my spouses, friends, then another, and another, and their kids, as I sit with mine,at the bar,back to the https://wall.I was on camera, above my head, as one by one, each enters the doorway, staring at me, one by https://one.Unbelievably obvious.Unnerving, to say the https://least.Then the music changes and we are ignored for 30 minutes, till I said, ya ready https://Will.He knew, I https://knew.I looked at him, and saw https://it.The pain and https://resolve.Did we leave? No.Immediately, she states oh ya read?Now,ordering, showing grace and keeping https://cool.We eat and honestly, we did not, trust https://it.We both knew.so Sad.
I use the restroom and on way back, the same man, the owner states,"you're no good", in a weird flirty way.
Really? You do not know me, only what you heard, but I https://regress.I do not give attention to rumor and pettiness.Unbelievable.
We finish, pay and I realized, they will never, see me https://again.Another one bites the https://dust.My son, patiently waiting as I said my goodbyes, knowing thats it, again.

And on the way home, he tells me how disappointed and ridiculous, it has https://been.I thanked him, we laughed at how is it,that he, doesn't know, his father's closest friends and kids, but they know who we https://are.From gossip,not genuine care and concern.
Wow, unreal when the "catfish" is directly on your plate,looking at https://you.I almost threw up in public, as the song, 🤪 Crazy played, huh funny.
I didn't puke, that is awesome and Im proud of https://us.Grown ups, are stupid, https://seriously.Never be ashamed of your truth, ever.it is yours and no one can take you, https://ever.And if that is something He, William learned tonight, Im good.They, should take a look, truth hurts, he knew and did not care.His, their, loss, all, of https://them.My husband, lost his chance because he never wanted https://it.And ya know what, thats https://fine.But to seek revenge and maliciously try to hurt me by recruiting others, no, I will never hide or repent for forgiveness from people, who kept, an arms legth for ten years. Not my cross to https://bare.Ive watched them all, clique and pair off for years.Where, were they for him,seriously? Now I know, they were, for the HaMmer https://version.Great https://night.He saw it first hand, again.

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Dinner#artheals #avm #CPTSD #justforshow

So, we went to https://dinner.My favorite https://spot.They had moved from where I https://live.The owners know my husband and all of his friends do frequent.
At the time I was sick, we went once a https://week.Then I, alone.one time, the owner stated" out cheating again". I was shocked, sitting with my https://son.How could someone say that, seriously, in front of my son? I said back, this, is my https://son.Excuse you.it was a https://joke.I gave a pass.But, It was, that day ,I knew,he was defaming me, big time, to anyone that would listen.

Flash forward eighteen https://months.The restaurant is at a new location, tragically they lost a family member, their son.my heart broke, they are good people and we, no longer https://frequent.Im happy they are healing.
I adored these https://people.They fed my family when, I could https://not.And I did not see the connection until tonight.

Immediately, I greet him, the owner, the staff and there are, my spouses, friends, then another, and another, and their kids, as I sit with mine,at the bar,back to the https://wall.I was on camera, above my head, as one by one, each enters the doorway, staring at me, one by https://one.Unbelievably obvious.Unnerving, to say the https://least.Then the music changes and we are ignored for 30 minutes, till I said, ya ready https://Will.He knew, I https://knew.I looked at him, and saw https://it.The pain and https://resolve.Did we leave? No.Immediately, she states oh ya read?Now,ordering, showing grace and keeping https://cool.We eat and honestly, we did not, trust https://it.We both knew.so Sad.
I use the restroom and on way back, the same man, the owner states,"you're no good", in a weird flirty way.
Really? You do not know me, only what you heard, but I https://regress.I do not give attention to rumor and pettiness.Unbelievable.
We finish, pay and I realized, they will never, see me https://again.Another one bites the https://dust.My son, patiently waiting as I said my goodbyes, knowing thats it, again.

And on the way home, he tells me how disappointed and ridiculous, it has https://been.I thanked him, we laughed at how is it,that he, doesn't know, his father's closest friends and kids, but they know who we https://are.From gossip,not genuine care and concern.
Wow, unreal when the "catfish" is directly on your plate,looking at https://you.I almost threw up in public, as the song, 🤪 Crazy played, huh funny.
I didn't puke, that is awesome and Im proud of https://us.Grown ups, are stupid, https://seriously.Never be ashamed of your truth, ever.it is yours and no one can take you, https://ever.And if that is something He, William learned tonight, Im good.They, should take a look, truth hurts, he knew and did not care.His, their, loss, all, of https://them.My husband, lost his chance because he never wanted https://it.And ya know what, thats https://fine.But to seek revenge and maliciously try to hurt me by recruiting others, no, I will never hide or repent for forgiveness from people, who kept, an arms legth for ten years. Not my cross to https://bare.Ive watched them all, clique and pair off for years.Where, were they for him,seriously? Now I know, they were, for the HaMmer https://version.Great https://night.He saw it first hand, again.

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I will be better#avm #TBI #resilience#CPTSD

People want you to flip out, break down, hit a wall,to https://fail.The narrative will be validated and https://justified.I see it now, clear as I did six years ago.Fck, man,unbelievable group of players, showing their hands, expecting me to give grace? I am floored at the audacity,to believe someone can't have a intellecual disability, if they have high emotional https://intelligence.Seriously https://flawed.I had the privilege of being an advocate, for https://years.And let me tell you, I was played alot.
To have people, who are at an advantage, play people who are not, that makes me sick, has, made me sick and I can't look away https://now.Flip that script some more and I will back it up, by https://myself.And not by my own doing, I have people angry for what they did or they heard.

Never underestimate someone elses https://survival.Your perception of me, is your own, reflection.
My acknowledging it, is my awareness.

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I will be better#avm #TBI #resilience#CPTSD

People want you to flip out, break down, hit a wall,to https://fail.The narrative will be validated and https://justified.I see it now, clear as I did six years ago.Fck, man,unbelievable group of players, showing their hands, expecting me to give grace? I am floored at the audacity,to believe someone can't have a intellecual disability, if they have high emotional https://intelligence.Seriously https://flawed.I had the privilege of being an advocate, for https://years.And let me tell you, I was played alot.
To have people, who are at an advantage, play people who are not, that makes me sick, has, made me sick and I can't look away https://now.Flip that script some more and I will back it up, by https://myself.And not by my own doing, I have people angry for what they did or they heard.

Never underestimate someone elses https://survival.Your perception of me, is your own, reflection.
My acknowledging it, is my awareness.

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Cut it#CPTSD ,tbi,dbt,cbt,AVMlife.

Cut the cords that bind https://you.I have and he wont stop restringing https://them.Stop orchestrating hurdles and fires for me to react https://to.I have proved myself over and https://over.Why am I the one to always have to fight.im tired, Im hurting and over trying to repair relationships with broken people, I express with my work, my hurt, my https://experience.I have spoken, cried, yelled, https://begged.Why keep me https://drowning.I have no where to https://go.I cannot go back to family that treated me that way or stay where I am https://hated.I was happy, I was getting a routine, he took that, they wanted me sicker and I cant unsee that now.it is a betrayal no one understands, to have people "want you sick", as if I deserved it, https://wtf.Therapy taught me, those aren't my people, I have no people, he took that, they didnt want me or my https://son.Truth https://hurts.I get it, its me.

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Cut it#CPTSD ,tbi,dbt,cbt,AVMlife.

Cut the cords that bind https://you.I have and he wont stop restringing https://them.Stop orchestrating hurdles and fires for me to react https://to.I have proved myself over and https://over.Why am I the one to always have to fight.im tired, Im hurting and over trying to repair relationships with broken people, I express with my work, my hurt, my https://experience.I have spoken, cried, yelled, https://begged.Why keep me https://drowning.I have no where to https://go.I cannot go back to family that treated me that way or stay where I am https://hated.I was happy, I was getting a routine, he took that, they wanted me sicker and I cant unsee that now.it is a betrayal no one understands, to have people "want you sick", as if I deserved it, https://wtf.Therapy taught me, those aren't my people, I have no people, he took that, they didnt want me or my https://son.Truth https://hurts.I get it, its me.

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Have you ever been to an amusement park before, like Six Flags, and if so did you like it? Why or why not?

I went to Six Flags St. Louis years ago and was on there with my Aunt and was praying that it would stop soon. I had just eaten a chili dog, not knowing how fast this ride would drop me, but I held it down though... I had a fear that we would fly off the track, but that was years before amusement parks had all the malfunctions like nowadays. My aunt is no longer with me, she died of cancer many years ago.. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

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Have you ever been to an amusement park before, like Six Flags, and if so did you like it? Why or why not?

I went to Six Flags St. Louis years ago and was on there with my Aunt and was praying that it would stop soon. I had just eaten a chili dog, not knowing how fast this ride would drop me, but I held it down though... I had a fear that we would fly off the track, but that was years before amusement parks had all the malfunctions like nowadays. My aunt is no longer with me, she died of cancer many years ago.. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

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