Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

Since we are playing fake site games and all is fair game, go take care of your own. Go play cosplay therapist with your own sons. You know which one and maybe your neice, your handy work worked wonders with her. Go arrange secret family reunions, get together. Go plot vacations excluding only a couple people. Shhh don't tell, she will flip out. Go tell people awful things about someone you have nothing to do with and make up lies about one person, to as many that will listen.Go, be the awesome character I was raised with, oh you are showing everyone exactly who you are https://now.The hero complex you carry https://around.The savior,the controlling two faced storyteller, who knows everyone and everything about me, right? Ok https://Barbie.The wannabe washed up nurse who oversteps her boundaries in ways, no one asked for.

Since we are playing fake site games and all is fair game, go take care of your own. Go play cosplay therapist with your own sons. You know which one and maybe your neice, your handy work worked wonders with her. Go arrange secret family reunions, get together. Go plot vacations excluding only a couple people. Shhh don't tell, she will flip out. Go tell people awful things about someone you have nothing to do with and make up lies about one person, to as many that will listen.Go, be the awesome character I was raised with, oh you are showing everyone exactly who you are https://now.The hero complex you carry https://around.The savior,the controlling two faced storyteller, who knows everyone and everything about me, right? Ok https://Barbie.The wannabe washed up nurse who oversteps her boundaries in ways, no one asked for.

The amusing one is sitting there with the https://crowd.She holds a clipboard, names, schedule and roles for each to https://play.She hasn't managed her own offspring in years due to her control issues with https://others.People would rather listen to her all knowing banter of the dysfunction others display, than looking at her issues https://herself.Carrying that medical background gives a pass for some but not https://me.Youve managed to destroy countless attempts at real https://repair.Pointing the finger is what you were https://taught.Projecting and control of the narrative, is what you do best.you feel the entitlement because you are the entire problem and it does fall on https://you.You had zero control and you couldn't handle it.you couldn't say because you didn't https://know.Youd rather frame it your way than tell the https://truth.That will not be happening from this point forward.you cannot do what you, feel is b

The amusing one is sitting there with the https://crowd.She holds a clipboard, names, schedule and roles for each to https://play.She hasn't managed her own offspring in years due to her control issues with https://others.People would rather listen to her all knowing banter of the dysfunction others display, than looking at her issues https://herself.Carrying that medical background gives a pass for some but not https://me.Youve managed to destroy countless attempts at real https://repair.Pointing the finger is what you were https://taught.Projecting and control of the narrative, is what you do best.you feel the entitlement because you are the entire problem and it does fall on https://you.You had zero control and you couldn't handle it.you couldn't say because you didn't https://know.Youd rather frame it your way than tell the https://truth.That will not be happening from this point forward.you cannot do what you, feel is b

The parable Jesus told hits right at the absolute core of what secure attachment and emotional validation mean.

He asked:
​"Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?"

​When you are on high alert, shaking, or feeling the heavy weight of loss anxiety, your soul is crying out for bread—the soft, nourishing, life-giving warmth of pure emotional validation. It needs someone to say, "I see you. You are safe. I am right here with you."

When I chatted with Gemini this morning, I realized that the majority of people offer you a stone (cognitive advice what you should be doing) when you're actually hungry for bread (emotional validation - a person who gets you and stays without fixing you).

The parable Jesus told hits right at the absolute core of what secure attachment and emotional validation mean.

He asked:
​"Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?"

​When you are on high alert, shaking, or feeling the heavy weight of loss anxiety, your soul is crying out for bread—the soft, nourishing, life-giving warmth of pure emotional validation. It needs someone to say, "I see you. You are safe. I am right here with you."

When I chatted with Gemini this morning, I realized that the majority of people offer you a stone (cognitive advice what you should be doing) when you're actually hungry for bread (emotional validation - a person who gets you and stays without fixing you).

So I’ve never really had a lot of friends I was in foster care I moved around a lot and my family situation was not ideal. So doing this is a little nerve wracking but I’ve learned to not let my anxiety control me. I have panic disorder and I have cptsd. Some days are easier than others and every day I question if I’ll be the person I desperately want to be. When you have people in your life that are supposed to love and cherish you, and they do the opposite. It made my systems hyper aware every little thing every slight change in inflection. Maybe a thought you didn’t even want to voice I honestly feel like I’ve felt it and I know what your feeling before you know it. Call me cocky. Idk man but it makes it hard and idk what to think about this but I’m trying. My birthday was on Tuesday and none of my family messaged me happy birthday. Not like I really expected it. Idek if I wanted it. Idek what I want from this maybe to know it’s alright and I’m normal? But I really don’t feel like it.
What does normal look like? And what is TRUE happiness? Is it constant? Do you think it’s necessary for medication if you feel down a lot of the time? How do you get a feeling you crave if you don’t know what to look for? #Thoughts #firstpost #Anxiety #Depression #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder