Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

If you are invited to go some where with someone, would you encourage the person or when the time came to leave, ignore and hope they dont join? That's my https://life.I watch him quietly get ready, no eye contact, no words, get dressed as quickly as possible and let the bike warm up for 5 minutes.
No, you did not want me to go with https://you.You don't get points for asking half heartingly when the person knows, they arent your first choice.
It is cruel and three years in and he has that cruelty down, a sciencenow. You all taught him to treat women like dirt.
I am so tired of this fckn double https://standard.I am tested daily to see what Im going to do, how Im going react, just so they can figure out, how they can get me out of this house.
It is embarrassing and yesterday was a only scratch of truth to https://it.Involving all these people for nothing,my neighbors, my cousins? What is wrong with you people? Do they believe they are helping?Because They, are not.do his friends believe any and everything,he tells them? Ooh yes they do, they have and they https://will.Not my problem or https://concern.I will be https://fine.If he's already filed, prove it, show me, step https://up.I will not be handled or pushed into a decision that is not for https://me.I will be going this https://week.Whats the big secret? I no longer care to know, find out or stress about things that do not involve https://me.And his life, does not involve me, include me and He, doesn't even want me in https://it.How long do they think I'll clean up after these people who hate me?I am doing for myself because they dont want me, they let me know daily and I act in response, to how I am treated.
You treat me like I dont exist, then you no longer https://exist.See how that works?
I do not https://chase.And I definitely am not chasing any man, on a motorcycle, who'd rather blame and deny, than work on a https://relationship.Keep collecting data and https://skeletons.Are those plans working out great for you so far? Lying about care, making your family and my son lie, all to build a case against https://me.When you could have walked away, pride and ego in tact.Now, bitterness and counseling for all involved, for years to https://come.Thanks again for more traumatic experiences to sift https://through.People are the ugliest when $$$ is lingering about and It is https://sad.All clear and my coping to be called mean because its not all sweet, passive and June Cleaver https://enough.Go have some other woman pet your ego,because Im not https://it.I was never it and I know that now.

If you are invited to go some where with someone, would you encourage the person or when the time came to leave, ignore and hope they dont join? That's my https://life.I watch him quietly get ready, no eye contact, no words, get dressed as quickly as possible and let the bike warm up for 5 minutes.
No, you did not want me to go with https://you.You don't get points for asking half heartingly when the person knows, they arent your first choice.
It is cruel and three years in and he has that cruelty down, a sciencenow. You all taught him to treat women like dirt.
I am so tired of this fckn double https://standard.I am tested daily to see what Im going to do, how Im going react, just so they can figure out, how they can get me out of this house.
It is embarrassing and yesterday was a only scratch of truth to https://it.Involving all these people for nothing,my neighbors, my cousins? What is wrong with you people? Do they believe they are helping?Because They, are not.do his friends believe any and everything,he tells them? Ooh yes they do, they have and they https://will.Not my problem or https://concern.I will be https://fine.If he's already filed, prove it, show me, step https://up.I will not be handled or pushed into a decision that is not for https://me.I will be going this https://week.Whats the big secret? I no longer care to know, find out or stress about things that do not involve https://me.And his life, does not involve me, include me and He, doesn't even want me in https://it.How long do they think I'll clean up after these people who hate me?I am doing for myself because they dont want me, they let me know daily and I act in response, to how I am treated.
You treat me like I dont exist, then you no longer https://exist.See how that works?
I do not https://chase.And I definitely am not chasing any man, on a motorcycle, who'd rather blame and deny, than work on a https://relationship.Keep collecting data and https://skeletons.Are those plans working out great for you so far? Lying about care, making your family and my son lie, all to build a case against https://me.When you could have walked away, pride and ego in tact.Now, bitterness and counseling for all involved, for years to https://come.Thanks again for more traumatic experiences to sift https://through.People are the ugliest when $$$ is lingering about and It is https://sad.All clear and my coping to be called mean because its not all sweet, passive and June Cleaver https://enough.Go have some other woman pet your ego,because Im not https://it.I was never it and I know that now.

https://Nope.Not me.you can slander, defame,gossip, plot, lie all you https://want.I will not be caring for these people anymore due to the means, at which they go to, to control and imply a narrative and the way, they,set themselves https://up.It is the grossest display of misogyny, I have ever experienced from another https://women.Completing disgusting and foul to be played for this long, by women who have no idea the damage they've https://done.I spoke truth everytime and was loyal, gave pause and helped, with out asking for anything but communication and https://respect.I never wanted anything from anyone.now I am going, to go and find out what exactly happened, why its being hid and whos responsible for my https://signature.I https://asked.She is not going to use me as a reason why.

https://Nope.Not me.you can slander, defame,gossip, plot, lie all you https://want.I will not be caring for these people anymore due to the means, at which they go to, to control and imply a narrative and the way, they,set themselves https://up.It is the grossest display of misogyny, I have ever experienced from another https://women.Completing disgusting and foul to be played for this long, by women who have no idea the damage they've https://done.I spoke truth everytime and was loyal, gave pause and helped, with out asking for anything but communication and https://respect.I never wanted anything from anyone.now I am going, to go and find out what exactly happened, why its being hid and whos responsible for my https://signature.I https://asked.She is not going to use me as a reason why.

Why wouldn't they let me go, when I could have left? That scares me the https://most.Why keep me and provide only the barest of care? Who does that on purpose?And then tries to put me off on another? Why?

Why wouldn't they let me go, when I could have left? That scares me the https://most.Why keep me and provide only the barest of care? Who does that on purpose?And then tries to put me off on another? Why?

To put such emphasis on certain things, shows strategy and a lie https://unfolding.Trying to extort me for care? No it wasn't going to happen, ever.Now, I cannot unsee all in front of https://me.Nothing to do with any of them, my past relationships or my https://future.This game they manufactured is not okay, in any capacity and I get why none of them see it as https://wrong.He can have his house, her house, his truck, her car, his career, his girlfriend and family, his new group of support and his https://hoarding.Im going to go on Wednesday and I will be faced with another https://test.I cannot stay with her overnight, I can during the day, but I will not be caring for her after this last interaction with her granddaughter and daughter in https://law.I will not be the one to find her or be munipulated at the end of her https://life.I will not.it is her families responsibility not mine.it is,possible, to hire someone to maintain her situation until her granddaughter can come and care for her, long https://term.That never should have been placed on me or my https://husband.I cannot be the one anymore due to the way I was treated and I do not put myself in positions to expose myself to suicidal https://people.I no longer do that and not respecting that is enough disrespect for me, the last two years, enough for a https://lifetime.They no longer to keep disrespecting me.

To put such emphasis on certain things, shows strategy and a lie https://unfolding.Trying to extort me for care? No it wasn't going to happen, ever.Now, I cannot unsee all in front of https://me.Nothing to do with any of them, my past relationships or my https://future.This game they manufactured is not okay, in any capacity and I get why none of them see it as https://wrong.He can have his house, her house, his truck, her car, his career, his girlfriend and family, his new group of support and his https://hoarding.Im going to go on Wednesday and I will be faced with another https://test.I cannot stay with her overnight, I can during the day, but I will not be caring for her after this last interaction with her granddaughter and daughter in https://law.I will not be the one to find her or be munipulated at the end of her https://life.I will not.it is her families responsibility not mine.it is,possible, to hire someone to maintain her situation until her granddaughter can come and care for her, long https://term.That never should have been placed on me or my https://husband.I cannot be the one anymore due to the way I was treated and I do not put myself in positions to expose myself to suicidal https://people.I no longer do that and not respecting that is enough disrespect for me, the last two years, enough for a https://lifetime.They no longer to keep disrespecting me.