Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

I'm numb.Did I understand the level of animosity? UHM,NO.I do not hate people like he says I do.I walk away from those who aren't nice to me.After chance after chance and opportunity. I come from major mean girl types and I can not be around it and I did spend years, calling them out. I miss the supportive ones, they, never took issue, with any of traits.I am who I always have been.I never understood why someone would toss someone aside for their sexual history, preference and ideology.it is a tiny fraction of your being.If I judged others, based on that,who they were with, what that person did, liked and enjoyed, I'd be called much worse. Seriously? That, is weird, to me. Funny thing is, I have questioned how did those two end up happening but not who has he slept with? About anyone in my life.If you do, that's is weird
That to me in extremely strange behavior, to want to know.Why not ask yourself instead.
Disect your own body, desires and hangups, instead ofhangup, Get your own spice, in your own life.Mines Taken..Read a spicy novel, take that picture, Live a little.

Thats some stalking, Dahmer, level shift, to name off past relationships.Collecting and displaying someone's life as if, it is disposable,soiled or, defective, it is sad and they, need to find simple values, integrity and character.
Yes, simplicity for my complexities.I restart my life, quarterly 😆 🤣 due to, others, review and systems in place.I will be able to contribute more financial when the emotional support is consistent and I will rebuild my faith in him.He will not die of guilt, remorse or alone.I want him to enjoy his life, feel pride in us again and find his voice to lead his house.We did have plans and friends, together but he has a separate group.He needs to acknowledge his role, still but I will not ruin him, ever.He has been my world, my everything,even when he has no clue what to do.

I'm numb.Did I understand the level of animosity? UHM,NO.I do not hate people like he says I do.I walk away from those who aren't nice to me.After chance after chance and opportunity. I come from major mean girl types and I can not be around it and I did spend years, calling them out. I miss the supportive ones, they, never took issue, with any of traits.I am who I always have been.I never understood why someone would toss someone aside for their sexual history, preference and ideology.it is a tiny fraction of your being.If I judged others, based on that,who they were with, what that person did, liked and enjoyed, I'd be called much worse. Seriously? That, is weird, to me. Funny thing is, I have questioned how did those two end up happening but not who has he slept with? About anyone in my life.If you do, that's is weird
That to me in extremely strange behavior, to want to know.Why not ask yourself instead.
Disect your own body, desires and hangups, instead ofhangup, Get your own spice, in your own life.Mines Taken..Read a spicy novel, take that picture, Live a little.

Thats some stalking, Dahmer, level shift, to name off past relationships.Collecting and displaying someone's life as if, it is disposable,soiled or, defective, it is sad and they, need to find simple values, integrity and character.
Yes, simplicity for my complexities.I restart my life, quarterly 😆 🤣 due to, others, review and systems in place.I will be able to contribute more financial when the emotional support is consistent and I will rebuild my faith in him.He will not die of guilt, remorse or alone.I want him to enjoy his life, feel pride in us again and find his voice to lead his house.We did have plans and friends, together but he has a separate group.He needs to acknowledge his role, still but I will not ruin him, ever.He has been my world, my everything,even when he has no clue what to do.

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I fall every fckn time,every trap, every response and I can't even stop myself from defending myself anymore.
Yes my https://patterns.I told him and he did not care, did nothing, https://nothing.Didnt communicate, go to therapy, try or end the relationship. He wants both worlds, https://seperate.He chose to defame me, tell people a one sided version two years after showing he didnt https://care.He was strategic and denies involving his entire side? Before I went on S.S., not after, https://before.And his mind was made up three years https://prior.I know now and I remember all of it.
I have evidence and it is abusive disguised as concern. Blatantly harassing me as if I'd crawl away. Phasing me out like that, bating me, setting me up, laughing at me.Seriously.WTF, who do they think I am? I was raised in abandonment.
I want out, I'm not ungrateful or selfish, at all. I am awake, big difference and to deliberately do this to a woman, is fvkn sick.

I fall every fckn time,every trap, every response and I can't even stop myself from defending myself anymore.
Yes my https://patterns.I told him and he did not care, did nothing, https://nothing.Didnt communicate, go to therapy, try or end the relationship. He wants both worlds, https://seperate.He chose to defame me, tell people a one sided version two years after showing he didnt https://care.He was strategic and denies involving his entire side? Before I went on S.S., not after, https://before.And his mind was made up three years https://prior.I know now and I remember all of it.
I have evidence and it is abusive disguised as concern. Blatantly harassing me as if I'd crawl away. Phasing me out like that, bating me, setting me up, laughing at me.Seriously.WTF, who do they think I am? I was raised in abandonment.
I want out, I'm not ungrateful or selfish, at all. I am awake, big difference and to deliberately do this to a woman, is fvkn sick.