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I knew#CPTSD #artheals
I knew they hadn't accepted me, I felt https://it.I was placated and dismissed, my entire life, by them, my own. A last thought, the forgotten one, the one who was always asked about,Where's Amy, How's Amy? They heard it, their entire lives and they hated me, for it. They, did that. Not https://me.They said I wanted https://attention.They told me, they were sick of https://answering.And they thought Id tell people first, what they did.
So discredit my word first, paint a victim role, a dependant moron,who is incapable and is a bad mother and sister. Yet, no one had a role in, our lives and I asked, I attended and https://waited.Funny how that plays out.no one had a front seat. All hearsay and gossip, all from a couple players. I ask, I confront and bite back.
They did not like https://that.I am not stupid or psychotic, I have extremely hypo emotional intelligence, high scores 😆 🤣 😂yikes.I cant compute the nuances of socializing.
It was a cycle. And, if Im kept in the dark, I'd definitely react stupid, being kept, in the dark.
I no longer wanted to be that charactor for them to mock, belittle and https://chastise.I was, the punching bag. Years later, thats funny, to https://me.I remove myself self but I was,still a problem, to be dealt with.
I have been, judged and disrespected, countless times, for no reason, other than a gossips gifts for sport. Has to do with,economic status, image, titles and education status, that is all. Labels and status for comparison.
And to me, that is a NOT, a great bar for, character.
Id try and engage but the seed was planted, by my choices, years prior. Theyd ask odd questions, to try to weave, the answers they had, assumed, over years of watching but never engaging.
Some people CANNOT handle being wrong, for anything. And will never admit their wrong doings, ever.
Straight questions get straight https://answers.When you play vague games, I'll make you walk the maze as well.im not playing nice to people, who treat me like https://dirt.When a family, tries to write your own script, they abandoned, all truth and the chances of real connection,to become https://obsolete.I am vulnerable and open to building, when all, are forthcoming.
Being a target and singled out, isnt mending or fostering, it is, controlling and https://manipulating.I have not spent years recovering to be placed back in a position to be shunned, boxed or https://used.My best is ahead of me, it could be one day a week of being fulfilled to everyday, that is my choice.my future, IS mine to decide and build.im going to keep being transparent and intentionally https://present.I will beable to stand my ground, I will listen and will continue to give grace to those people who hurt https://us.I have wasted time out of fear, of facing what has transpired and it hurts too much,to face another label and https://loss.I am over https://it.Done.My husband, my son, my home, my pets, is my concern.it is, has been and will continue to be, for him. Will.
Those without him, will never understand, https://why.Because they never asked.
We are, too much, but I'd rather be that, than, not enough.
And we are.
