Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

I wish for all my desires to always come true right away instantly.
I would be happy for the rest of my life if this wish comes true for me. If you all know it will be granted for me comment saying that my wish will come true. My desires are personal but it is nothing that is bad. I really hope that my wish comes true soon. I hope everyone’s wishes on here come true too. I wish you all the very best.

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It has been quite some time since I needed the support from this app. Today I could really use it. I had a miscarriage a year and half ago. Today I am 9 months. I have struggled this pregnancy from having severe morning sickness to now having a heart issue. I’ve spent majority of this pregnancy being cooped up in my bedroom unable to eat or walk. I have a 16 year old stepson that came back from being with his mom for 3 months traumatized. She didn’t make him go to school. So therefore he didn’t have anyone to speak to. He was showering in a moldy tub. He was bleeding from his butt and she didn’t take him to the hospital. She left him alone all hours of the night. She also thought it was a great idea to go to a guys house that he had never met to have him set on the couch while he listened to her and this stranger gave sex.
We put him into therapy and he loves going. After 2 years he seems like he is just getting worse. My husband and I go to therapy every week for him and that same day later in the day, he goes to the same therapist.
We hit a huge stump and I am getting worried about bringing this baby into this house.

Yesterday we found out that he has been pressuring his girlfriend to do things. She has clearly said no and he keeps on. We have an appointment with our therapist today. But I am at such a loss. I never would have thought he would disrespect someone like this.
My ex husband sexually assaulted. It took me going to therapy to realize that just because we were married, I said no. He should have stopped. This issue with my stepson has brought up so much of my past and I am spiraling out of control.
I remember my ex laying on me with his hand on my throat. Squeezing so hard. I remember trying to pry his hand away and him repeating “no, you love this. It makes you more wet.” I fought and fought so hard and eventually would lose the battle and black out.
I never thought I would have ended in that position. But I did. I don’t think my stepson is capable of doing things like this. But he is doing damage to this girl.

Honestly I feel like giving up on God and just keep going to the mental hospital constantly. I hate the way God made me. I have really bad mental health issues and probably don’t even have the brightest future ahead unless if I have a lucky star. I spent most of my years in and out of mental hospitals. I barely lived life and sometimes I don’t care if I die because I am not living a life I want and I feel miserable #MentalHealth #Anxiety #ADHD #AnorexiaNervosa #Bipolar2 #Bipolar1 #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #CheckInWithMe #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Schizophrenia #Psychosis #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #PTSD #Trauma #SuicidalIdeation #SuicidalThoughts #Selfharm #Autism #Addiction #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Manic #Grief #Diabetes #DiabetesType1 #DiabetesType2 #MajorDepressiveDisorder #EatingDisorders

Shaking and confusion are frequent. Bad thoughts overwhelm me, and their themes change. I always expect the worst and project it onto loved ones. Guilt is constant; I'm also haunted by past. Self-condemnation is intense. I overthink everything. I scrutinize others, analyzing deeply. I feel empty. Time is spent fixing, not living; I live waiting for a future that I am also afraid of. I'm always rushing, panicking, and stressed. If I notice the slightest change, I think something terrible has caused it; I am rigid. I even stress others. Sadness and fear are present. My legs often feel weak. Sometimes, I physically feel pain in chest and believe my heart would stop – it's too much. I am always alert in case my loved ones need me; sometimes I feel like I'm being watched. I can't make sense of it all. I am too aware of the slightest detail or change in my loved ones, and it consumes me. I force myself to move along with my days, laugh, and shove things under the rug, but when I am at home, I still feel these things. Can anyone relate or am I just exagerrating and if yes tell me what has been helping them? #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #ChronicFatigue
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I have dealt with depression most my life. It has been more prevalent in my adult years. For the past 4 years I've been unable to work and function in my daily life or take care of my basic needs. I do everything I told, I go to therapy I take my meds I practice my grounding techniques for my cptsd. I spend most of my day in bed unable to find the motivation energy or desire to get out of bed. Making decisions seem to be impossible for me. Things just seem to be multiplying the depression is getting heavier. I also just found out my best friend is moving, my only friend. I just wonder why I should keep trying. I'm tired of just existing with no feelings and no emotions I am just numb to the life around me. I am truly lost.
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#Anxiety
#diabetic
#Crohn 's
#IBS

I have dealt with depression most my life. It has been more prevalent in my adult years. For the past 4 years I've been unable to work and function in my daily life or take care of my basic needs. I do everything I told, I go to therapy I take my meds I practice my grounding techniques for my cptsd. I spend most of my day in bed unable to find the motivation energy or desire to get out of bed. Making decisions seem to be impossible for me. Things just seem to be multiplying the depression is getting heavier. I also just found out my best friend is moving, my only friend. I just wonder why I should keep trying. I'm tired of just existing with no feelings and no emotions I am just numb to the life around me. I am truly lost.
#major depressive disorder
#CPTSD
#Anxiety
#diabetic
#Crohn 's
#IBS