Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

I lost them to "God".

I lost them to alcoholism. And then I lost them to the grift that is AA and Alanon.

I lost them to "The Secret", manifesting emptiness and more grifting.

I lost them to crystals, outdated planetary positions, forgotten signs in favor of trends, and "healing light".

I lost them to sickness and death because they didn't believe in science.

I lost them to racism.

I lost them to MAGA

I lost them to Capitalism, Patriarchy and the status quo.

I lost them to Zionism.

Sickness and Death are normal and as humans we learn to cope with the natural losses life brings.

Losing someone to harmful propaganda is like being surrounded by zombies capable of making one choice: to sacrifice their empathy and critical thinking just so they, as an individual living in a human society, can FEEL good regardless (and in some cases in spite of) of how it affects others.

I'm so tired of grieving the loss of other people's empathy, the demise of critical thinking and basic humanity around me.

#Loss #CPTSD #Grief #emotionalprose #Reflections

I lost them to "God".

I lost them to alcoholism. And then I lost them to the grift that is AA and Alanon.

I lost them to "The Secret", manifesting emptiness and more grifting.

I lost them to crystals, outdated planetary positions, forgotten signs in favor of trends, and "healing light".

I lost them to sickness and death because they didn't believe in science.

I lost them to racism.

I lost them to MAGA

I lost them to Capitalism, Patriarchy and the status quo.

I lost them to Zionism.

Sickness and Death are normal and as humans we learn to cope with the natural losses life brings.

Losing someone to harmful propaganda is like being surrounded by zombies capable of making one choice: to sacrifice their empathy and critical thinking just so they, as an individual living in a human society, can FEEL good regardless (and in some cases in spite of) of how it affects others.

I'm so tired of grieving the loss of other people's empathy, the demise of critical thinking and basic humanity around me.

#Loss #CPTSD #Grief #emotionalprose #Reflections

My son and husband have betrayed me beyond a couple times.And now, backtracking by munipulating and changing stories and narratives.Both trapped themselves today, outloud, setting the other up.Screwing eachother over, again.Pretending the other is unaware and in on it.Slick but stupid.The phone is only one thing.Involving him, thats saddest lesson forced on me.Im not longer holding space for anyone involved or seeking an outsider activity.They are all involved and Im alone, sick and trying, still, to fix the unfixable.It will be brought up, played and finished, by them.I will have nothing but knowing I tried everything for these two and they continue to cover the truth. No longer will I, put them first.I will treat them, how they treat me.I will finish painting and making my home, mine.no one else does any cleaning or maintaining.I am, the only one organizing, cleaning and trying to fix.I expect someone who sees the value and not only obstacles.Sad and reactive to this last game.It is ridiculous,pathetic and gross.Still.

My son and husband have betrayed me beyond a couple times.And now, backtracking by munipulating and changing stories and narratives.Both trapped themselves today, outloud, setting the other up.Screwing eachother over, again.Pretending the other is unaware and in on it.Slick but stupid.The phone is only one thing.Involving him, thats saddest lesson forced on me.Im not longer holding space for anyone involved or seeking an outsider activity.They are all involved and Im alone, sick and trying, still, to fix the unfixable.It will be brought up, played and finished, by them.I will have nothing but knowing I tried everything for these two and they continue to cover the truth. No longer will I, put them first.I will treat them, how they treat me.I will finish painting and making my home, mine.no one else does any cleaning or maintaining.I am, the only one organizing, cleaning and trying to fix.I expect someone who sees the value and not only obstacles.Sad and reactive to this last game.It is ridiculous,pathetic and gross.Still.

I cleaned and organized the pantry, yesterday.you just dumped a box,of cookies, out in a pile, loose, into the https://drawer.No care, no consideration or bother.it is then, shoved closed.box tossed on the counter.no problem the drawer has a pile of cookies, that will be crumbs https://now.Doesnt matter I cleaned and organized it for the new food to go there, with the box.no problem, I will arrange them, https://again.For the third time this month.

I cleaned and organized the pantry, yesterday.you just dumped a box,of cookies, out in a pile, loose, into the https://drawer.No care, no consideration or bother.it is then, shoved closed.box tossed on the counter.no problem the drawer has a pile of cookies, that will be crumbs https://now.Doesnt matter I cleaned and organized it for the new food to go there, with the box.no problem, I will arrange them, https://again.For the third time this month.