Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

Years ago my dad took me to a dietitian and they put me on this weight loss pill called Adipex and it damaged my whole face with deep acne scars even worse when I stopped taking the pill a few years later I gained back more weight than i was before. My highest weight has been 190 pounds. My dad is really bothering me about my weight. I am on Mounjaro right now. I do want to lose all the weight permanently but my face is damaged and I have been to more than one different dermatologist. It looks like there are holes diged into my face. He wanted to put me back on the same weight loss pill that damaged my skin and I had to fight him. It is so annoying because he thinks he knows everything that is why I don’t always listen to him or my mom because I feel like they don’t always have knowledge about stuff even though my dad is well educated; my mom doesn’t have the most education and worked in retail her whole life. I am not even the prettiest girl even when I was 90 pounds; I didn’t like the way I looked. All the really good looking attractive guys always turned me down and never really payed interest me. I have been called ugly so many times.
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I have an Android smartphone and I like it until I forget it at home when I'm out shopping or going out of town and have to turn around to go back and get it. Here's something negative that happened to me with my cellphone recently: I went into panic attack mode. I was pumping gas a few weeks ago and left my phone on the top of my car and drove home from the gas station with it on top of my car and then i couldn't find it when i got home and didn't think to look on top of my car drove back to the gas station looked around for 30 minutes for it ask the gas station attendant if someone turned it in thinking had to buy another phone all my personal data was in there feeling helpless to find it still sitting on top of my car I was relieved. #ctsd #MentalHealth #PTSD #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

I used to shop during those sales and got a smart tablet a couple of years ago and a smart TV. I haven't done this since COVID-19; it's too much work to keep myself out of panic mode when people are surrounding me in the store like that. So now if I see something online in the Black Friday sale, I will buy it that way, but standing in the 3 4 hours 4-hour-long lines, in my opinion, that's for the birds. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

I used to shop during those sales and got a smart tablet a couple of years ago and a smart TV. I haven't done this since COVID-19; it's too much work to keep myself out of panic mode when people are surrounding me in the store like that. So now if I see something online in the Black Friday sale, I will buy it that way, but standing in the 3 4 hours 4-hour-long lines, in my opinion, that's for the birds. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

Today’s challenge: Wash your car, inside & out. Whether at home or a carwash, let the act of care reflect the clarity you deserve. Clean space, calm mind. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

Today’s challenge: Wash your car, inside & out. Whether at home or a carwash, let the act of care reflect the clarity you deserve. Clean space, calm mind. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

For me, I can deal with it around the city if I am close to my house, but if it happens at night unexpectedly, I have minor panic attacks, I have to try to keep myself calm or just get off the expressway and pull to a gas station or something. I have a pet peeve about having trash of any sort, even mud in the car on the floor, and it's raining outside, makes me just want to jump out of the car so my cars are spic and span clean 90% of the time. It could be because my biological mom was a clean freak growing up, every day mopping the floors, etc. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Trauma