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Tired and in pain (better with the early meds) and working on my art and writing. Finding a job is up in the air at the moment but I am still looking for remote writing jobs. Or data entry. Whatever. I want to be normal. But my old "normal" is gone. Family (ie: my mother) cries over it.

I hate it when people cry...especially over things I cannot change. All I can do is find the right combination of coping skills, meds, doctors, and therapists, to fare better in this world.

I'm a sensitive person. Less so now but it's a part of me that will always remain. Hence why I'm looking into writing jobs and posting my writing everywhere...not just on Tumblr.

It feels like I'm "always sick" and yeah I am. I'm fighting a battle...(nerd moment: like when the Autobots fought for eons against the Decepticons) but it's worth it. It's worth it to try.

Besides...I may not see the world but I have my family and my love and his family. They are MY world. They are the light in MY life. Their love gives me fuel to keep fighting.

#BipolarDisorder #borderlinepersonality #Fibromyalgia #RheumatoidArthritis #SjogrensSyndrome #PTSD #Anxiety #Menieres #Osteoarthritis #DiscDegeneration

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Feeling low

I had cervical spine surgery in late December. It helped tremendously with the pain I was having in regards to the neck and pinched nerves and herniated disc. I was diagnosed with Fibro and chronic fatigue a few years ago. Even though I feel better, I still don't feel good. I feel like people around me expect me to be at 100%. Sometimes I think this must all be in my head. I wake up feeling like I've been hit by a truck. I never feel rested. I guess I hoped I'd feel 100% better in all aspects. I still wake up and need the pain meds. I'm still exhausted before I even start the day. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for what relief I did get. I guess I need to come to terms with my life as it is. #Fibromyalgia #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #DiscDegeneration #stenosis #Arthritis #TemporomandibularJointDisorders #Depression #Anxiety