Eating Disorders

Hi, my name is 573kerrisnow. I'm here because I am a work in progress, every day I don't ever feel like I'm enough.

#MightyTogether #BipolarDisorder #Anxiety #PTSD #ADHD #EatingDisorder #OCD

hi i’m just a lonely lesbian with fibro and about a billion other things. hoping this will lift my spirits
#MightyTogether #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #Migraine #Fibromyalgia #EatingDisorder #OCD #Grief

First off I use the term Fat* as an empowering self identifier, based off the work of Roxanne Gay.

So i had an eating disorder in high school. I didnt gain weight from the time I was 12 to 15, and I was skinny, underweight. At 15 I started recovery and have been in remission for 5-6 years. In that time, my weight has almost doubled (for a bunch of reasons). In the last few months especially, I've put on a good share of that weight. I was fine with being plus size, at least when I was a Small Fat* (RG's term) and could hide the weight with looser clothes. Now I'm reaching the point where I can't. And I hate it and I'm ashamed of hating it bc I know there is nothing wrong with being my size. But I just feel ugly and unattractive and huge and I don't like how I look in just about anything. I have almost nothing that I had a year ago because it doesn't fit me/I dont like it anymore. Im uncomfortable in anything except pajamas and hate going on the bus because of the space I know I take up. I feel like I dont know how to express who I am which makes me feel like I don't know who I am. So I want to loose weight (just a few pounds) but my body won't do it which is bringing back fasting/restriction habits, especially since I have no apeptite and nothing sounds or tastes good (due to meds Im on and other disabilities I have). So in the last couple days, I've barely eaten anything and I don't want to because nothing sounds good, I'm rarely hungry and most of all because I dont want to gain weight.

And no one in my life understands. Everyone thinks I should be loosing weight (fat shaming) and that I just need to have discipline to eat and eat "healthily".

Deny me all the good of earth-
All joy and soul-rebounding mirth,
All wealth and rank and love’s great days;
But leave one thing by which to cope
With ebbing life’s dim evening rays-
Leave me but hope. #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #EatingDisorders #TraumaticBrainInjury #MightyTogether #LGBTQIA #KetamineTreatment

My parents are both 79 years old and it is not lost on me that I might not have them for much longer so I’ll share a moment I will cherish and remember long after they have passed. Yesterday I was decorating the house for Christmas. Holiday music was playing and my mom was making her traditional Danish butter cookies in the kitchen while my dad sat reading the news. The house was filled with the smell of baking cookies as all three of us chatted together. It’s a simple memory. But it will be cherished and remembered by me forever. Savor those little joys in life! It’s often the small things that bring us the greatest happiness. 💛 #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #EatingDisorders #TraumaticBrainInjury #MightyTogether #LGBTQIA #KetamineTreatment

Hi, my name is Gaslighted22. I'm here because

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #Migraine #PTSD #EatingDisorder #OCD #Grief #ADHD