Failingatlife

#Depression #Failingatlife

I haven’t been to work in over 3 weeks. I’m going to lose my job but I was still unable to get there today. I could cause a financial burden to my husband but that thought doesn’t get me there. My doctor upped my meds about 1 week ago. I have had recurring nightmares for about 6-8 weeks. I need something to snap. #badwife #Anxiety #Nightmares #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Failingatlife

All this time in the house, still cannot organize. Do I have too much stuff or am I just a bad
At cleaning up. Everything has a place until I forget to put away then the nightmare begins, one thing on-top of another - especially clothes. Feeling defeated, once I am working again I had hoped to have a house in sparkling tidy order, failing miserably. 😕

Today I feel like a failure and a fraud 😔 today I let my illness win and it feels like I chose to fail...didn't make it to work today because I didn't sleep and I felt too anxious to do my job. #Failingatlife I miss my hobbies and can't get myself to even try to do something that makes me happy #Bipolar2Disorder #CPTSD #GAD #RapidCyclingBipolarDisorder #isuckatthisthingcalledlife

had a sorta bad day I’ve had worse but Idk today I wasn’t feelin it. the future terrifies me, I just want to be successful and finally beat all the odds I have against me sick of being the underdog getting treated like shit, tired of never feeling adequate enough. I like to think I’m a good person but I always end up finishing last and taken advantage of. Just wanted to vent. #Depression #Anxiety #Failingatlife #BadDay

no matter what i do i feel like I’m failing. I’m a single mom with a 2 year old. i never planned to be a single mom i got married before i decided to have kids and then my husband left us a week after she was born. he left us for a woman he had known for 6 hours a woman who over and over threatened to kill me and my at the time new born daughter. so i was left to raise my child alone. i hadn’t worked in years because i had stayed home taking care of his 3 other kids and my pain was so severe that there wasn’t even anything i could do. 2 years later I’m still stuck and I’m still failing my daughter every day i hurt to bad to play like she wants we are barely getting by I’m not sure if she’s going to get anything at all for Christmas this year. she deserves so much better than me and this life that I’ve stuck her with. i hate feeling so worthless i hate the guilt i feel every day i hate life and I’m just so lost

Cant do this again. 😖.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Lifestory #SuicidalThoughts #AnxietyTriggers #Selfharm #DepressiveDisorders #SocialAnxiety #SocialAnxietyDisorder #Bulemic #AnorexiaNervosa #SexualDysfunctions #SocialAnxiety #EatingDisorders #Failingatlife #Failinghealthcare #unemployed #SexualAbuse #ChildhoodEmotionalAbuse #Childhoodgaslighting #ChildhoodPsychologicalAbuse