feelingunabletofunction

Today is a crappy day. It started when I woke up and read the news. There, I read about the next Corona actions. Now, they are about to reduce our range of motion to 9 miles. Although I know that I'm not a big fan of traveling long distances because of my travel sickness, I got furious because of this negative news. I'm also afraid of more ordinances and more severe ordinances by the politicians, like curfews for example.
Just because of this negative news, I got sensory overloaded and I had a slight meltdown and a panic attack. Later, we cleaned the kitchen, and the strong smell of the cleanser caused a headache and a shutdown. My neighbors in the apartments next to mine and in the apartment above mine are always arguing loudly with their wives. Now, I am extremely drained and exhausted, and besides this, I have a headache, an upset stomach, I feel sorry for having a meltdown, a panic attack, and a shutdown in that same afternoon. I also feel sorry for getting rude and aggressive because of my anxiety attack and my meltdown. The only thing I want for now is just skipping the rest of this crappy day as it is sensory hell and unsurvivable for me. I even don't want to watch wrestling tonight, although I'm always looking forward to watch it. I don't know to cope with this crappy day. #Anxiety #AutismMeltdown #Autism #autismspectrumcondition #AutismShutdown #Drained #ExhaustedAlways #exhaustion #chronic Gastritis #Chronicexhaustion #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #SensoryOverloads #SensoryDisorder #SensoryIssues #Depression #PTSD #AutisticAdults #AutisticExhaustion #deadinisde #aggressive #depressed #aggression #Anxietyanddepression #AnxietyAttack #AngerManagement #Feelingsorryformyself #feelingunabletofunction #feelingdeainside #EmotionalBlackouts #mentalblackouts

I feel like I am seriously loosing it. I get to this point where I feel so far gone with every feeling imaginable for #CFS and just dont understand how I have gotten to this point. I keep pushing forward because I have to because I have kids and a husband to keep going for but I'm just so tired. The doctors and the people that are around me just do not understand what it is like to feel this way. I want to just lay in my bed and cry and cry.

I have tried so many things from nutrition to exercise to doctors to natural paths to plenty of rest. And so far there has not been one single thing that has helped me remotely feel a bit of a lift of this weight I am carrying.

Every single day is a chore. I have to fight my own self and my own thoughts and symptoms on a constant basis.

I would love to hear from someone; anyone that has #CFS #Fibro #cs that has any experiences that they have had any hope and relief with their day to day. What have you done to help? I would really love to hear your thoughts and experiences and your help.

#MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #CFS #Fibromyalgia #Fibro #css #CentralSensitizationSyndrome #Depression #tired #BrainFog