Can't stand it when my partner touches me
So recently I've been staying with my partner as they live closer to where I'm currently working, and I've just been fining it really unpleasant to be in physical contact with them. It's so frustrating because I can feel the lack ot physical intimacy (cuddling, kissing etc) and I don't like that empty space between us.
I'm really lucky that my partner is very understanding and supportive but socially I've been struggling for a while now, as well as being in a prolonged depressive episode and constantly having high levels of anxiety (about everything) and lots of sensory overload and burnout. And at the end of the day all I want to do is take my clothes off, listen to chopin's nocturnes on repeat and make myself a nest. The thought of physical contact with anyone except my dog is repulsive to me right now, and I think it's making my depression feel like an even bigger obstacle.
Is anyone else going through similar things? I hope it's not just me.