Feelingunappreciated

I took the decision to deactivate facebook. I was on it far too much and had gotten to the point where i was looking at others lives and feeling a failure. Since deactivation not one person has checked to see if I am ok....
It feels like it has added to my suspicions that no one really cares anymore

Between WFH, taking two online college classes, being a mom of 4, who range from 21 to 15, dealing with custody with my ex and Covid had me moving back to town and now trying to find a place and not sure what to do. Currently house sitting for my brother, but his lease is up July 31st.. So stressed 😫 I don't really eat, sleep or have a clue what to do or when I would even have time
.. #needingstrength #justkeeppushingon #Advice

If I had wings, I'd leave everything behind. I've been dealing with a lot at work and at home. I have men in my life in both of those places and none of them pay attention to me. I never being up me internal struggles to many, I find myself thinking about it all at work only to cry myself to sleep in the safety of my bedroom. That seems to be the heaven for me, while outside is Hell itself. I still struggle with the idea that I'm needed in this world. In my mind, it feels like I'm unwanted, disregarded, and occasionally acknowledged. I sit on the bathroom floor after coming home sometimes. I'm either letting things sink in or I'm crying my eyes out while trying not to make a lot of noise. I count they days until I see the psychologist. More and more I feel empty inside. More and more I feel like I need to distract myself from these intense emotions. More and more I think about dying. I don't expect much anymore, nor do I feel that there is anyone who can really understand me. #MentalHealth #Depression #Sadness #Emptiness #intenseemotions #Feelingunappreciated #feelinglonely #FeelingEmpty #Feelingsad #insidemyownhead #keepingthingstomyself #heaven #hell

I am struggling with feeling inadequate in the care and time I have put forth to help my friend with her baby. I feel like she is relying on me like a spouse or partner. I was at the hospital from the Sunday, 15th to Wednesday, 3 am 18th After we got this little man here after 40 plus hours of labor and an C-Section unplanned...I bottomed out. So instead of coming back to the hospital I had to go home and crash for 10 hours. She was still very drugged and has expressed she felt hurt and disappointed like she had been abandoned. I don't feel like how I felt mattered which led to my abrupt self preservation decision. She is not in the right mind set for her to hear me. Any thoughts of encouragement or thoughts on a better way to communicate with her at this time would be much appreciated. #lostinmyownmind #Feelingunappreciated #iamanempath