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"THE DARKNESS"
Its crazy how so much of the past can bring up the darkness you had to endure... for along time my childhood was a big blur and I couldn't remember certain parts of it and now I know its because I've been suppressing the bad & the horrible parts way from myself... many years later I am starting to remember the terror... When I became a mother it was super triggering to me & I couldn't figure out why ....now I've realized what was triggering me is that I'm giving my children what I never had & they are so worth it to me but it hurts knowing that I wasn't worth it when I was a child... I never wanted kids because I thought I was going to be a terrible mother and still to this day im tremendously hard on myself as a mother because I never want to let my kids down the way I've been let down in my life... kids should feel safe & wanted...they should never feel afraid of the environment they live in .... I look at my kids everyday & think you know I've been through the ringer but I'm going to give them better no matter what they are my reason ❤ #Early Childhood Trauma #iamasurvivor #ChildhoodTraumaSurvivors #Depression #Anxiety #Trauma #Abuse
