The reality, with the severity of the trauma I experienced, is a life that will mostly be of pain, suicidality, and immense struggle
I will have more bad days and bad moments than days where I will feel in control
If I live a long life, it will be a mostly miserable one
It's better to live a short life that is with happy moments than a long miserable one
If I was ever diagnosed with an incurable disease, it would honestly be for the best
People with my kind of trauma can't live healthy fulfilling lives...