Quit

I've been sick for the past ten days (sinus infection) and took all of last week off work. Now I have to go back tomorrow and my anxiety is quite high. My whole body is aching and sore and I have a headache. It's like my body is saying, "Noooooo!"
I know that everything will be significantly behind and piled up because even before I got sick, my boss was away so I was covering both our positions. I feel so stressed just thinking about it.
I had my first session with my new career counselor today. She very quickly recognized significant symptoms of burn out and her recommendation is to get a doctor's note for a medical leave of at least a month in length. I have already been thinking about quitting my job, so this throws another option into the mix.
Since the beginning of the year, I took one week off for vacation and now two weeks off (the other was in January) for illness. That means I have worked for 5 weeks out of 8 weeks in 2023. And I'm so exhausted! I need to make a plan for leaving this job as soon as possible.

#Anxiety #Depression #Burnout #MentalHealth #Job #Work #Career #Counseling #MedicalLeave #Quit #tired

I took a week off work for my recent trip (see previous posts), and then got sick over the weekend and have barely worked this week so far. The thing is, I don't want to go back.

I think I figured out today what the main issue is: I understood that 90% of my role would be centred on certain tasks and responsibilities (that I wanted to do), but that is working out to be only about 20% of it. I did ask for a job description before accepting this role 1.5 years ago (I have been a bit slow to process how I'm feeling about my job haha), but my boss said she didn't really follow it. Honestly, if the ratio was even 50-50, I would be more OK with it. My boss has been in her role for almost 30 years, so she is unlikely to shift the way she does things at this point.

So, here's what I'm thinking of doing. I know that it is going to be difficult to hire a replacement for me (one of our other locations has been looking for two years), and I also don't have another job lined up or even know what to apply for. My thought is to tell my boss that she should start looking for a replacement, but that I will stay until the end of quarter 2 (June 30) if she needs me. This way, both of us have space to explore what we need, but I at least have a definite end date.

Is this a good idea or am I just drawing things out unnecessarily? (Note that while talking about other job options with my sister yesterday I had to cut the conversation off because my anxiety got so bad I almost couldn't breathe.) I don't see my therapist until next week, but we have talked about my stress about work before many times.

#Work #Job #Responsibility #Quit #movingforward #MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

It's nearing two years that I impulsively quit my job (to save myself and my health) and I haven't been able to find a job since then. Does anyone else have that FOMO around not working? #fomo #unemployment #MentalHealth #Quit #Work

#irrationalsinustachycardia
It's a rare condition. I need delicate surgery to keep living at least a longer life. But the thought of a circular saw splitting my breastbone has me ready to vomit. I'm ready to call the whole thing off I'm anxious terrified about the saw and can't stop thinking about it. The date is the 30th and the closer it gets the more I want to #Quit . It's not easy to live with this problem, but I'm thinking it would be easier than letting my chest bone get SAWED open! Any help out there?
#CheckInWithMe

For me #Depression is a constant war. I don’t for how long I’m fighting for survival . You how how exactly it feels? You’re in a dark room. Listening your own voices. Louder and louder . No matter how many times you escape from those things. But eventually you give up. Eventually one learn after so many trials. My story is bit different from all of you. I’ve learn one thing in my life . ‘ life hurts ‘ no matter what.’ The whole life I’m waiting for some kind heart. Now I just need one to listen me. I’ll not #Quit this way. #Anxiety ...

Little hope. Just little. Another other day with same #depressive thoughts. I’m not talking to anyone these days even close friends. I don’t need sympathy. I just want to speak my mind. Want one to listen me. Don’t give me suggestions what to do what not just listen to me once . I’m hurt. Broken . Do you really want me to end it this way. By god I don’t want either. Show me some light . Be my #friend . I’ll not #Quit . #Depression a slow poison

“If you want to rebuild, you must tear it down first, and that perfectly
describes exactly what I had to do.

Though I also came to realize that often,
we define ourselves by our actions, but because we define ourselves by our
actions, doesn’t mean we can not change our own story. “

We can refuse to accept the way people want to define us, we can work
hard to escape a bad reputation, only to wonder if other people see it the same
way.

It can be hard to change the scars
of our past, because the scars of the past never truly go away. Though there is
one thing that we should not do, we don’t stop, we don’t #Quit , and we pick
ourselves back up to rejoin the fight worth fighting for.”

#Relationships
with others, are worth fighting for. We all need people, or at least a person
to rely on and confide in.