RacingThoughtsThatMakeNoSense

Bipolar is new to me. I’m learning about my own body and mind. Being aware of behaviors now that always seemed normal. Last night I had racing thoughts throughout the night. I don’t believe they were deams. I would have one thought about a situation then another totally different thought about another. Seemed never ending. Not sure how long this went on but I struggled to go to sleep. Felt anxious at bedtime. Felt tired the next day. Being more aware these days about my mood, thoughts and actions.

Over the last two years I have not had many days where I've experienced #RacingThoughts .

A few weeks ago I did wake up with racing thoughts and it felt like I was in some different world. It felt like I was on the other side of glass looking into my life and thinking a million different things about my work, life, my personal life, my family, friends, pets, environmental things, and politics among other things.

Racing thoughts feel as though my thoughts are a racing car and the thoughts are going 100 mph and at times swerving out of control. I tend to get confused when I have racing thoughts- life seems to be a blur thus life gets more stressful when I have them.

Truthfully at the moment I don't have a tool to deal with them. Meditation and mindfulness are recommended but I am so lazy when it comes to doing that.

I am going to try my hardest to get into meditation and mindfulness training. I know research backs the efficacy of it and my therapist is always recommending me to practice mindfulness. #MentalHealth #livingwithbipolar

As I was growing up I always thought there was something wrong with me. As I continue to grow up I still feel like there's something wrong to later be diagnosed as bipolar, was a lil step to feeling better right... Still doesn't feel right. The medications they gave me just put me in a fog and I feel like I'm going nowhere. #RacingThoughtsThatMakeNoSense #Feeling #Feelinglost