I lost my ego years ago being placed in positions I had no authority to be in. I watched people abuse children, minorities and disabled people on a daily basis by not being able to speak up for them, due to zero authority and zero support in positions in Behavior. Calling people out is not something I seek or enjoy. I give others time and space to sort out their own solutions and if they circle back to me, I engage but I no longer go out of my way or seek out solutions or help for others. I was available and willing. Time and time again for real connections and repair. That was not their intention, ever.
They did not want to engage with me. They do not want me, so why would I go back? Why would someone seek out people, that closed the door in her face? Why would anyone go back to people who ridicule, antagonize, mock and shame? Why would anybody want to expose themselves to that on a regular basis? To imply the most aweful things of a person and then turn and question why they aren’t around? To discredit someone their entire life? And then turn and try to play hero? The ones who did the most damage, are the ones, I have no interest in replying to.
The spokesperson, the gossip, the manipulative ones who say they “know”, when they have no involvement or basis in my life since I was a juvenile delinquent. Smearing my character will not hide your lies, your plots,your schemes or your lies against me. That family, the entire group of players need, serious help and not secretly. They need to be called out and told you don’t do that to people. You don’t withhold information from one person out of thirty, because you want them excluded. You don’t single one person out because they do not agree with your beliefs. You don’t single one person out because they see things from a different perspective. You don’t exclude one of dozens, because they see your motives clearly. You don’t lie and judge someone because they don’t have what you have. You don’t ignore someone who’s hurting because you were able to move on. You don’t hold someone else’s child to your households ways, without involving the parent. You don’t manipulate a young person about their parents. You don’t use your family members as pawns and clowns, in a circus that has no lion tamer!Oh And, You don’t try and traffic your sister or wife, because of a lie you can’t justify or no longer manipulate! But please involve some more people that haven’t been told the truth yet, please keep telling them to approach me. One time I might slip up and say what actually happened and who is who. As if I couldn’t drive by and see myself. But thats right… my eyes and ears are delusional now and absolutely nothing I’ve experienced has happened. All a dream in another timeline dimension and it’s all over now? Because I have a new phone? Seriously?
All the algorithms that they believed would sway me, a different angle every few days was pitiful and gross. It showed exactly who’s who and how the do perceive me, which has been a sitcom to view the multiple facets of your impressions of me. Get a fckn hobby, I’ve known and have screamed for you all, to stop, the entire time! I knew! And he knew I knew! It was the hypocrisy for me. I am no longer interested or even care for any type of reconnection or rebuilding of family with, anyone who would do these things to people, ecspecially their own family! Words face to face are an amazing tool of communication. But you cannot have repair with boldface liars who sabatoge people for fun.
I cry for her constantly, she was used and lied to, to hurt me. He never loved me. He kept me safe? No., he let another man come after me and showed him how, that is not protecting me. No woman deserves that, no kid deserves a man that hates women. I don’t care what her count is! No woman deserves that kind of treatment from anyone.
He hates women and hates community, and therapy people who care and talk about healing, feelings and life.His feelings, matter but others aren’t allowed to have feelings around him in his house, his matter only, what he wants matters, his time, his life, his family, his friends and his, all his, I am only a maid in his life. Nothing more. And he has let me know time and time again. A pretty maid I was told, by her. A pretty maid when I try and wear makeup. Maybe if I was blond? I could try harder but it is set, for me to fail. She said too many things she had no business knowing and he, told too many people, he was done. I write my feelings and they exposed them for all to read. Such supportive people. If it was done to me, you are next! And now, there is no way backwards, at all.That was not my doing, that was all, their doing. Now, nothing has been accomplished in six years because of their manipulation and chaos trying to fix what they broke. No one came to me for anything, no questions and no answers, because I wasn’t to be spoken to or heard, just put away for good. But I’m the one that needs therapy? Seriously!
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