Addison

Upon waking I am taken aback by grief some days. Life is always more good than bad, there is so much joy to be had, but there is also the grieving that is a part of that. The loss of what you thought your life would be and the time you would have are felt too. They are also a gift, I know I have less time and I don’t know what the future holds, so each day is a gift and each challenge an opportunity.

I have in my disease process had a lot of losses, but primarily physical. I know I won’t be able to do the physical things I do much longer and chronic pain is just my reality. This time I feel like I am losing myself, and I am, there is a mental decline and that scares me. As an acedemic my brain has been very important to me. I am losing memory, I am struggling to make decisions, my acuity is declining. I am losing myself, parts of what makes me, me. That terrifies me, but already I am adapting and learning new ways around it. We are hoping this is due to Parkinson’s, not my mitochondrial disease or another genetic condition… one has a treatment, the other does not. Never thought I would be wishing for Parkinson’s. 😂 No matter what it is I will adapt, I will figure it out and find my joy, but for now I will allow myself grieve.
#EhlersDanlosSyndrome #MastCellActivationDisorder #PosturalOrthostaticTachycardiaSyndrome #MitochondrialDisease #Addison ’sdisease #Asthma #CeliacDisease #PTSD #Abunchofrarediseases

For the disabled community: if you were building your dream home what would you put in it for accessibility?

I am so very lucky to be able to build a new home and put in all the things I need now and will need in the future. A wheelchair is most likely not too distant in the future for me.

On the plans I have adapted all doorways wider, all sinks accessible, my bathroom (walk in tub and vanity with space to roll up to), kitchen (microwave drawer, space to sit for food prep), ramps, tall toilets… what am I missing? What annoys you about your space? What do you wish you had to make life easier?

#Addison ’sdisease #PosturalOrthostaticTachycardiaSyndrome #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #MitochondrialDisease #Abunchofrarediseases #Asthma #MastCellActivationDisorder #Arthritis

Trying to focus on the beauty around me to distract myself. This is one of the amazing views I see on my morning trike ride. Saw my ENT surgeon yesterday, plan in place… trying new meds first, surgery as back up plan (which is good because all non-emergency surgeries were just cancelled where I live because our Covid numbers are so high). Brain MRI tomorrow and hopefully the neurologist soon. Always an adventure with my health. There is so much beauty all around me though; the smile of the Mom I helped navigate online learning today, the excitement of my pups when I go upstairs, the smile I can hear in my partner’s voice on the phone, the I love you text from my teenagers and the wind on my face as I ride into the sunset in the morning. Life is always more good than bad. Send some good energy my way that a) a brain exists 😂 and b) it is nothing too scary 😋. #Asthma #PosturalOrthostaticTachycardiaSyndrome #Addison ’sdisease #MitochondrialDisease #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #Abunchofrarediseases #MastCellActivationDisorder

I got approved for my medical accommodations to teach from home! 😃 Teaching Jr. High Career and Technology Foundations, so excited for a new challenge. Teaching brings me so much joy!

Though my health is a constant battle and every day I wake is a gift and miracle life is always more good than bad. I’m finding ways to renovate my home to have my family be able to stay in the house again, my partner is amazing, I have the best job… I am lucky.

#Addison ’s #PosturalOrthostaticTachycardiaSyndrome #MitochondrialDisease #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #Abunchofrarediseases
#Asthma #COVID19 #Teaching

So tired of going to the hospital for tests and to this doctor and having that blood work done. Seems like all I do is spend my days at the hospital for tests after tests. I'm trying very hard to stay positive but it's just wearing me out. I've always used the phrase being the sick and tired of being sick and tired , to motivate me😊 , but this is different because this is a sick and tired that I'm not able to shake so I'm just wondering😜 I know this is under a thought but what is a good way to overcome all these tests and try not to jump to conclusions and just being at peace about it everyday of not knowing ,do I have another new diagnosis? This time I'm afraid it's something serious. 😟I'm exhausted from just spending 4 hours at the hospital yesterday.. So many of you have it so much worse than I do . ❤️ My question is how do you get through it? I have my faith which helps a lot. To be honest I'm just exhausted and I really want some answers when I go back to my family practice doctor tomorrow. I'm afraid he's just going to give me another round of tests and tell me to come back in 2 weeks again. Being so tired that to even get up off the couch wears me out. Chronic illness sucks.Love you all.
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#ChronicIllness
#RareDisease
#Addison 's Disease
#sjogrens
#CPTSD
#Undiagnosed
#BipolarDepression
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#SuicideSurvivor
#SleepApnea
#SpinalStenosis
#FibromyalgiaDiagnosis
That's all folks, for today anyway.