Bo

Waking up to another glimpse of #onalityDisorder #Anxiety #Depression , squinting at the crack in the curtains, and seeing sunlight, my guilt is doubled.

I should go outside!

I cannot get out of bed. My dr says it’s learned behaviour and I must change it. But you see, dear Dr. It is these precise #learned behaviours that kept me safe and #alive in the #violent storm that shaped my #painful #Terrifying childhood.

It feels #Deathdefying to imagine losing my #Behaviours . After all they kept me alive! I owe them #Gratitude , and I’m not leaving them anytime soon. It’s feels akin to throwing half of myself away.

But, now I feel they’re #Killing me.

Tired

I’ve always tried to be a positive person but am no longer able to maintain that. I’m angry all the time at everyone and everything. I need help badly to stop being like this. I’m really hating myself and feel very out of control. Can anyone relate and help? #erlinePersonalityDisorder # #Bo #BPD #anger #anger issues #Rage #raging #MentalHealth #struggles #Bpdisexhausting #bpdsymptoms #BPD #BPDtriggers #Bpdsucks