conquer

I'm trying to relearn to think for myself and unlearn that the only thing that mattered was my mother and if she was talking to me or not. I took care of the three narcissist in my life! So who was going to take care of me? Answer is, Nobody took care of me! And Nobody did an awful job making me feel safe, secure and loved. And years later I'm stuck in a loop that replays what I remember from age 2 ish until my mother disowned me at 34 and my divorce from a narcissistic abusive both physically and mentally, ex were both out of my life! And now I only remember the bad! Almost all of it is coming out, now that I'm in therapy! All day, when my mind is stuck in the loop, I replay every bad thing everyone has done to me! I'm trying to cut the tape!!!!! #conquer the mind #PTSD #CPTSD #MDD #Anxiety

For many years, I have had some sort of reason that I was really unstable. Now that I've been stable for two years, I am trying to focus on what brings me joy! The Mighty brings me extreme joy because I have met my supportive best friend on it. I am working on what other things bring joy to my heart. What brings joy into your life? How do you keep that joy going?

I have no purpose, hence the question.