contamination OCD

OCD, a demon in my head,
Compelling me to check and dread.
Washing hands till they are raw,
Counting steps until I'm in awe.

It's a constant battle in my mind,
A never-ending loop that's unkind.
A prisoner to routines I must repeat,
Afraid of the consequences I might meet.

An obsession that's irrational,
A compulsion that's uncontrollable.
It's a vicious cycle that never ends,
A cycle that my mind defends.

But I won't let it consume me,
I'll fight back until I'm free.
I'll face my fears with all my might,
And conquer OCD, the demon in my sight.

So I'll take a deep breath and take a step,
And leave the OCD, my constant fret.
I'll break free from its vicious hold,
And live a life that's brave and bold.
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I joined a depression and OCD support group today. Something that was mentioned by the therapist was that ERP is trusting our future self to handle whatever happens.

I don't see how I can do that. My OCD developed when I was a child. To deal and cope with the situation I lived in. Parents whom invalidated my needs, invalidated my wants, invalidated my feelings. I learned to mistrust. I learned to avoid. I learned to create little bubbles of control in an environment that was out of control.

Now that my parent's are dead. I still have these bubbles of control that I try to make. I actually work even harder now to please OCD than ever before. My OCD bubble of control has trapped and disabled me. It is something that I don't see how I can undo. Because really it is not my own doing. But it is still my responsibility.

#EmotionalAbuse #ContaminationOCD

Lately I've been trying to meditate. As someone with OCD, and someone who has always had a very busy brain in general (I'm certain the two are related!), it's very difficult for me to slow my brain down and refrain from engaging with my thoughts. Man. I also struggle with being a beginner at anything, which is probably part of my OCD. Good grief, I am definitely a beginner with this though, and I am working on accepting that this is where I have to start to be able to make progress (yay perfectionism, am I right?!). A podcast I listen to said that most people experience intrusive thoughts every TWO SECONDS when they are beginners at meditation. That sounds legitimate. I swear sometimes I have a new thought every second, just BAM-BAM-BAM, popping into my head like fireworks, and each one clamoring for my attention. But it's supposed to help with OCD in the long run -- since it's all about accepting your thoughts without judgment -- so I am gonna keep on keeping on!#Meditation #MentalHealth #ContaminationOCD #HealthAnxiety #perfectionism

hey hey i was wondering if anyone else experiences strictly emotional contamination as part of OCD? to be clear, this is very different from contamination. for me, emotional contamination manifests like this: i dont like my mother walking into my room or touching me or my friends because i dont want her to contaminate it with her being & her personality & the negative memories i have of her. even if she puts her clothes in the laundry with mine i break down and take all my clothes out and put them outside while it snows for about an hour to get rid of her presence on my clothes.

does anyone else do something like this? # #ContaminationOCD #ObsessiveCompulsiveAndRelatedDisorder #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder

Long story short, I have always had a phobia of getting sick. It causes me to avoid being around sick people at all costs. The pandemic has only made it worse. But does anyone have tips for how to deal with it when you *have* to be around someone who is sick? I'm not talking about COVID-19 here, but if my partner gets a cold, for example, any tips on how I can cope with being around them and deal with the potential for becoming sick? My phobia controls me so much that I either want to ask my partner to stay somewhere else or I want to leave, but this is very detrimental to my relationships. Any tips or suggestions at all? #ContaminationOCD #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Phobia #IllnessAnxietyDisorder

Hi friends. So recently, my fear of eating contaminated food (and getting sick) returned. This is an obvious setback on my anorexia recovery. Does anyone have tips/advice on dealing with this fear? Thanks! #EatingDisorders #ContaminationOCD #Anxiety

Such a bad ocd weekend. Paranoid about everything from vape juice being everywhere and coronavirus! Feel so on edge and upset. Just want to relax! #ContaminationOCD