Encourageme

If you’ve been following along, I had a new doctors appointment last week, and the follow up is tomorrow. I can feel that the meds aren’t doing enough, and as I’m on the highest dose allowed, the next step is most likely surgery. Depending on the surgery, I might miss out on graduation- something I’ve worked super hard to get to.

The doctor basically said surgery is the next step herself last week- she just wanted to run more tests before deciding on anything concrete.

Anyway, I’m really nervous and my anxiety is taking me down some wild paths, so I thought I’d ask for some encouragement here. (You guys are honestly really good at that!) So please, tell me something good, a nice pick-me-up quote, or a funny joke! I’d really appreciate it!

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Hello, Mighty Warriors! After being treated by my GI for a horrible IBS-D flare for 4.5 months, I was admitted into the hospital yesterday evening. As it turns out, I have cancer that has mestastized to my liver.

Two weeks ago, I became severely dehydrated and my husband took me to the ER. Through labs and a CT scan, I learned I had some type of liver disease. Yesterday, I had the recommended MRI and discovered it was cancer that had mestastized to my liver. Today, I’ll have a liver biopsy and more labs to find out where the cancer is originating from. It’s hidden. I am also expecting a visit from an oncologist later. How did I get here? Is there anything I could’ve done better? Did I not accurately describe my weakness, horrific stomach cramps, burning, spasms, and explosions in the bathroom? Was my 54 lb+ weight loss not enough to warrant more action earlier? What role did COVID-19 play? I ask because other doctors who would only see me virtually because of my chronic diarrhea (a symptom of COVID-19). I keep replaying the last 4-5 months.

One thing’s for sure, I am thankful my husband finally took me to the ER, which got the ball rolling. This morning, I am preparing for the fight of my life. The hospital allows no visitors but docs have asked for an exception for my husband since I am hard of hearing. It’s very difficult to hear anyway and even harder with a “masked” healthcare team (who, by the way, have been wonderful and understanding). I really need him here with me. It’s a double whammy to get this news and then be whisked away.

Your thoughts and prayers are much appreciated.

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