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    When the woman’s self defense ended it’s 12 wk course. I was asked to take karate classes. I had 2 private lessons from a amazing instructor. I sparred with him punches, kicks and take down. We did grappling( jujitsu) showed me moves that I didn’t know I was capable of doing. I’m now a brown belt. My #PTSD flashbacks appeared while sparring and I stormed off and hid in the locker room. He was trying to coax me out of there. I eventually came out and told him about my #SexualAbuse #Incest that my brother did to me . He hugged me so tight. But that didn’t stop me from taking karate. This all took place 30 yrs ago. I still remember what I was taught but I pray I will never have to use it #Selfcare #MajorDepressiveDisorder #PTSD #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder



    So, had hard day. So much negativity towards me from my mom. I got up and took a walk with my sons girlfriend. I don’t need fucking negativity in my life. I don’t even watch the news because of it. I’m thinking about my childhood I don’t remember ever finding joy or having enthusiasm. I remember stuttering whenever my dad would raise his voice or yell. Later to find out that’s part of #AnxietyAttack . I remember to laying in bed at 5 afraid to go to sleep because I was afraid of dying or afraid my parents were going to die again #Anxiety . My whole life was abuse from 8-12 #SexualAbuse /#Incest . Later on met my X husband #EmotionalAbuse . I’m done venting #MajorDepressiveDisorder #PTSD #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorde


    How do I calm down? #DV #Bipolar #BPD #PTSD #Incest survivor #Depression #panic attacks #Anxiety

    So I am at DV shelter and for the last two days another client in the house has seemingly singled me out to abuse?! I think she's on speed or something too? So she is screaming and yelling at me calling me names etc and the staff at shelter felt that I should go in my room? I am capable 100% of not talking to or being around that person! She just will not leave me alone? After having another attack from her maybe an hour passed by and she started talking to me like we were old friends asking me what time I had to work today? I at first didn't respond after 4 more times I just said I don't wanna talk to you and then she starts right back in on me!? Telling me she wants me kicked out and that I don't follow the rules just not making any sense?!? So my question is how the heck do I not think about it and go about my day?! I left the shelter very early so I could avoid that person entirely but I feel unsafe unprotected and I feel like I am allowing this person to run me off?! Its just that in the past due to my anti social bpd ways I can be violent after all the abuse I have been handed I guess I have used that to get my way?! Just the way my abusers always have? So I don't trust that I will be able to control myself I am so angry I haven't slept or showed or kept my appts today I'm sitting in my car in front of a friend's house bawling!!! How an this be happening and how do I make it stop!!! Do I just run or get a ppo?? The thing is I am moving out in less than a week and have great things a new apt job to look forward to but I am jot handling this drama well at all!! I'm trying not to beat myself up but I am mad that she is getting to me! I feel like I am being mistreated all over again!! I cry more when I am mad than ever! I dislike crying very much! What really bothers me is missing everything work! physical therapy! I just can't do it!! Staff at shelter told me to just let it go dont let it bother you so much?! Which made me more mad!!! If I fuck this up before the shelter helps me move out I will lose all of the household items and furniture the shelter is providing me and all of my transition help from them as well?! That cannot happen!!! Well fuck!! Not sure what I am gonna do now but I do know that I am taking my meds now! Help and please don't say just let it go!?!? Please?


    Up and Battling the Trauma Again

    Can’t sleep. It’s Father’s Day which means reliving some past traumas revolving around my dad. Husband is so helpful and understanding but now he’s asleep too and I’m feeling very much alone. Afraid to sleep and dream of things that hurt that I can’t control. Nighttime always brings it on like this and today so much more than others.

    If anyone is up and would like to connect I could use the friendship right now. There’s got to be someone else out there who is having a hard day today…. Just super triggering for me. I will be surprised if I get any sleep tonight.

    #RapeSurvivors #Insomnia #PTSD #Incest

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    What is emotional or covert incest?

    Emotional or covert incest is a type of abuse in which a parent looks to their child for the emotional support that would be normally provided by another adult. While the relationship may not be sexual in an overt nature, it may involve discussions about relationships and sex that are way above the developmental age of a child and therefore can cause similar types of affects later in life as overt incest.

    The term itself has been controversial although as someone who has survived both, I can assure you that from my perspective both have left equally as great a mark on my life.

    You can read more about my experience with covert incest here:

    Have you experienced this type of abuse? How has it affected your life as an adult?

    #Trauma #PTSD #CPTSD #Incest #CovertIncest #emotionalincest #EmotionalAbuse


    Interviewed on Handing the Shame Back podcast

    If anyone is interested, I was interviewed by Gloria Masters on her podcast Handing the Shame Back last week about my sibling sexual trauma journey: #ChildSexualAbuse #Csa #Trauma #SiblingSexualAbuse #SSA #SiblingSexualTrauma #SST #Incest #siblingstoo #Shame


    First TEDx Talk on sibling sexual abuse

    My friend Jane speaking on the TEDx stage about sibling sexual trauma and abuse. Just released and a first ever for TED! We’re making progress!
    #ChildSexualAbuse #Trauma #Siblingabuse siblingstoo #MeToo #Incest #siblingincest #findyourvoice

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    New Mighty Contributor

    I'm a newly minted Mighty Contributor as my first written piece was accepted for publication today. I was also interviewed on The Mighty Live last year. I share my journey of healing from chronic pain and trauma.

    By gaining an understanding of the mindbody connection, and addressing my childhood traumas, which have had a significant impact on my chronic physical pain, I have healed significantly. I still have further to go, but I'll never give up hope that additional healing is possible.

    I've come to The Mighty to be part of a positive healing community.

    More of my story can be found at or in my memoir, The Invisible Key: Unlocking the Mystery of My Chronic Pain. #MightyTogether #ChronicPain #Trauma #Incest #ChildSexualAbuse


    Trauma Narrative

    TW: Sexual abuse, assault and suicide attempts.

    Hi. I’m kinda new to this group but I’m hoping it will help me process what I’ve been through. I am a survivor of incest. I was abused throughout my childhood into my adulthood. I can’t really come to terms with it. It makes me feel tainted, disgusted. I struggle with what’s “normal” versus what’s not. I have rape fantasies where it’s happening to me or someone else. It makes me feel horrible. I attempted suicide twice because I couldn’t take it anymore. I’m hoping that by sharing bits and pieces of my story that I can slowly come to terms with it. Thanks for listening.

    #PTSD #ChildAbuse #SexualAssualtSurvivors #BipolarDisorder #Incest