The company that was scheduled to pick me up for my appointment cancelled my ride so I had to call the main hub for my transportation to order a Lyft. That was annoying but manageable. What wasn't manageable was my doctor not doing his job. He decided to tell me to see a different doctor that I have seen in the past. He was concerned about my eye pressure being just a little high. So I have to go see the glaucoma specialist in January. I don't have glaucoma. I might have astigmatism and I have atrophy in both of my optic nerves.
I was supposed to call my insurance for a ride home so I did. And I couldn't reach a human being. I was on hold for over 15 minutes. I ended up just ordering my own Lyft out of my own pocket. I was so angry and frustrated with the transportation company. I still am but I had therapy today at 3pm.
I had a panic attack when I got home. It was the same as the last few times. I took a shower and I felt a little bit better. I'm trying to figure out what is triggering my panic attacks but so far I don't know.
We talked about my feelings about my experience. We also talked about the panic attack. He made a suggestion for eating at the kitchen table from now on. I've been eating and smoking on my couch and bed. I'm gonna try to be more mindful of what I do. I gotta get the panic attacks under control.
He asked me why I haven't been using the table and I said I haven't had a table for over 8 years and I don't know how to start using it now. We talked about how to do it and it seems like it would be easier to do than I thought. But time will tell.