My Experience #CPTSD #anxiet y #Depression #Asthma #GravesDisease #graves eye disease #hyperthyroid #Childhood abuse survivor
I was raised by a narcissistic mother who was physically, mentally, and emotionally abusive. She would draw me in with the love that I craved and then cut me into pieces. She made me feel as though I could not live without her. This went on most of my life and I cannot for the life of me understand why I let it carry on as I did. The hardest part to me was when I told my aunts and uncles, her sisters and brothers, how she was and what she did to me, no one did a thing. It was the 60’s and 70’s but geeze!
i am now 60 years old and have been estranged from her for several years. I have a wonderful God, husband, family and friends which make my life full. Obviously my life is much better however I still deal daily with the maladies caused by the fallout. It is a fight not to blame and carry anger and hate however The Lord has shown me a better way that doesn’t eat me up with negative emotions though they obviously still come through at times and life isn’t perfect.
it is good to find a place where I can let my hair down with people who understand exactly what it is like. It’s wonderful to not feel alone but be understood.