Insomnia

Hi, my name is WhatisHome44. I'm here because I feel like my life is over due to my chronic illness, my childhood/current trauma, and my deteriorating body. Because of this, everything I’ve spent my life working toward has fallen apart. And I have no way to make it any better. I’m 34. I’m losing weight astronomically fast. I have an illness that is exacerbated by stress, and there are people in my life who go out of their way to cause me stress. I don’t have a family physician. I’ve been bounced around from nurse practitioner to nurse practitioner, and am in a horrible situation at a private clinic. I’m losing all of my savings and these private clinics are cleaning me out. I didn’t have much to begin with. I cannot afford food. My wife works every single day and I work 5 days out of the week from home. I’m a musician/composer/audio engineer, but I’ve been struggling to hold my instruments. I’m losing mobility in my arms and legs. My brain is not functioning correctly, and I haven’t slept longer than 4-5 hours in over a year. I’m so tired. It’s so hard to work and even harder to function. I have no pain control. And I’m eligible for M.A.I.D in my country. I am trying to hold on. But am ready to exit. This was quite long but barely scratched the surface. I apologize for the heavy subject matter.

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Hi, my name is yumii.

#MightyTogether #Migraine #Photophobia #Insomnia

The family has to know I sometimes am sleepy ( like often) when I am at work- they have to know this. I still push myself- to go forward- I still consider push myself when I am at work. But I still go to work and I am very very sleepy- pushing myself the entire shift

Some family members are upstairs in the house while I am working w their family member. They come downstairs- they have to have noticed I am sleepy. Maybe not. But maybe my client has told the family. They have never said a word about it to me.

I hoped to go on an Alaskan cruise w my husband- but I have a health issue- which i think may be ok/w on a cruise ( not sure abt a 6 hour flight w mt healt issue- thought maybe good enough to try’s ) - but I can’t seem to get myself in a position to get out of here and go away. My moods/ don’t have the get go.

My eating habits have gone way south - it is like i really don’t care-

I cook for my husband and once in a while I will eat w him but this is rare . My husband typically eats in front of the tv.

I thought I was helping the family bc when I would try to quit in the past they got very excited bc they had no one else.
But still a job is a job - and a job has requirements-
I think asking for a renegotiation was something done in error
I think- bc there is little challenge to the job besides my own personal challenges- insomnia-
There were definite challenges early on but things have improved immensely-
I am not going to act tonight or even tomorrow
I hope I don’t hear from my boss tomorrow bc I would like to meet w my therapist one more time bf responding to my boss-
But i think i have to work on my insomnia-
Or I can continue to do the best i can- and learn to say, No- when my boss asks me to work every week- i don’t have to work as often-if i can hack it. And just graciously accept the 3% raise - just say-thank you for the initial raise
Or quit-
Or reevaluate- guilt/.
I am working on this-

At any rate- I don’t think I’ll be working much longer- the sleep issues are really hard.

For the past 3 weeks, my already complicated insomnia has been at crisis level. Doctor put me on a med to fall asleep. Most nights it does but I don’t sleep for more than an hour and a half. What precious little sleep I get is restless and have frequent waking episodes. I have been using a symptoms / sleep / meds / intervention tracker for a few months. Out of desperation, I sat down and studied my circumstances. At around the same time that insomnia symptoms became a bigger struggle than normal, they stopped my Magnesium supplement. Magnesium helps with restlessness and a deeper sleep. Wouldn’t it be something if a supplement being reintroduced is the solution to this debacle?

My dear friend hasn't slept in 3 months.
The sleeping pills arent working.
She's keen to get her life back.
Any ideas? #Anxiety #Insomnia

I have been dealing with a situation that has culminated in my son facing criminal charges as well as civil penalties involving vulnerable adult abuse against me. It is all finally coming to a head and hopefully the end is in sight without completely distorting our parent child relationship. My current situation is that the extreme distress has caused my first physically overwhelming consequences. A week ago today I broke out in hives that keep getting worse. Some of them started blistering yesterday. I am in an assisted living facility and a histamine diet is not possible. The residence claims they can’t do that and stay within state mandates. Benadryl is not doing anything. I don’t know what else I can do for some relief. Suggestions and ideas no matter how crazy they might be? I do not have a current physician that is familiar with MCAS. I have an appointment with a new allergist/immunologist but not for another 6 weeks! I have so many symptoms besides this both mental and physical health related. But this is the most urgent at this point. ANY and ALL suggestions are welcome… #PTSD #MastCellActivationDisorder #Histaminediet #vulnerableadult #Abuse # #Hives #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #DID #MentalHealth #Insomnia #MajorDepression #HEDS #AutonomicDysfunction