Lost in a haze of symptoms.
Hi everyone. I have been struggling for a few weeks after realizing that the styloidectomy on one side of my neck did not make much of a dent in the constant pain I have experienced under the jaw. What it did do was lessen the throat and tongue spasms I was having, and took away the intracranial hypertension which was a previous concern. I've had severe POTs with severely dysregulated sweating, heat intolerance which have been very limiting. I haven't even told my own mother that I don't feel well enough to even join the community choir. I haven't been able to work for 18 years. My son, almost 13, is tough, because he's got ARFID, ADHD, and is very rigid and averse to joining anything even though he's highly athletic. There is no family nearby to help. I just feel like I'm in total hell, watching a young person atrophy because I am atrophied, and there are times I genuinely can't help him with things. I don't even have the support of a family doctor right now. I'm in high pain and high stress, and I need to triage my life. My son has been on the BBBS list for over 3 years. He won't see his father. Everything is OK when I feel ok. I have worked extremely hard for the treatment thus far and I really don't think I have it in me to continue to work this hard while feeling this bad. Please advise.
