lonelyandafraid

Ally my family doesn’t come check on me or hang out. I have almost no friends and I’m sad and I’m just very lonely. Who can help me crying and really not sure how to cope all alone😢? #sad #lonely #PTSD #BipolarDisorder #BipolarDepression #Bipolar2Disorder #Bipolar1Disorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #CPTSD #Fibromyaliga #FibromyalgiaDiagnosis #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BorderlineStigma #CheckInWithMe #Upallnight #Art #Photography #Arachnophobia #COVID19 #Love #Anxiety #lonelyandafraid #Prayer #god

I know a lot of people say this but, I am tired of letting everyone down. Maybe it is my depression or my anxiety but I feel like I try so hard for everyone around me and give every little piece of myself up so that there is nothing left and I still feel like I don’t have the love or support I need. I have tried to be open about my struggles and it has backfired and everyone looks at me life I am a leper or I am broken and fragile, and I am not. I am just tired and suicide is on my mind constantly. I just wish the thought would go away. I could never leave my daughter but the constant battle in my mind and in my heart and not truly having anyone that understands what I am going through in my life is taking its toll.

#Depression #Anxiety #Suicide #lonelyandafraid

I sit here and wonder what I keep doing wrong. Why, when I lift someone up, they always let me down. Why, whenever it comes down to it, no one is ever really there when I need them. Maybe it is because I am not like most. Most of my experiences are contained in the four walls that traps me. Maybe it is because they don't want to hear the crippling truth that escapes my lips. Maybe it is because I have done something wrong, or maybe this was the plan in the first place. Maybe I was meant to always be left; to look from the inside and watch as everyone lived their lives and leave me behind. Maybe I'm not human, and all of them know that but me. #MentalHealth #DifferentlyAbled #lonelyandafraid #Anxiety