I am so sad realizing my daughter has to suffer the same or even more than me. She is 12 years old now.
Is there any mumvor dad who is in similar situation? Its really hard to handle for me.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Selfharm #BorderlineStigma #mum #Daughter #Dad
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Anyone find that they just get no enjoyment out of the things they used to do?
I used to love spending an hour In the bath, bath bombs, candles and music I struggle to stay in for 10 minutes and then can't manage jt any longer
Anyone else found this or any tips how to get past this
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I’m not sure if I will explain this very well. Does anyone ever let societal stigma get on top of them too? I am almost scared for the people in my life to look too far into what BPD is in case they start to think badly of me. I’m not sure my FP knows they’re my FP or even what an FP is. I sometimes freak out that her simply knowing she is my FP is enough for her to abandon me because she might feel scared or worried if she reads about what it is and realises she is mine. And I guess that’s not even stigma really, a FP relationship is just very intense. Does this make sense? I don’t even know. Just feel like the stigma of “toxic, dangerous, obsessive” could be enough to scare someone off when I’ve worked so hard to get to where I am today and learn to control my behaviour and impulses (for the most part). Does anyone else relate to this fear of abandonment in case friends/family believe the stigma too much and have a lack of BPD understanding? I have never experienced this but it is a fear of mine. I am struggling to rationalise this in my head. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #EndTheStigma #BorderlineStigma
Hello everyone I am looking for support and validation. I was getting married to a man who broke things off yesterday via a message and not in person. He ghosted me right away and has disappeared.
My family is as confused and sad. He knew all the skeletons in my closet and asked to learn more about borderline. He has had therapy himself in the past and had a good emotional intelligence than most of my past partners.I feel like this relationship set the bar so high and I’m afraid I won’t be able to find another like it in this lifetime. We communicate superb, good problem resolution and lots of respect for being a woman and validation for my past traumas.
So I’m feeling super in shock and confused like what happened? I feel like I won the lottery just to be told “Sike never mind!” It feels like such a sick joke and I am living in a lot of “my life could have been so different” but not I feel super invalidated, Invisible and unhuman. My worst fear of abandonment had happened and yesterday I had an emergency therapy session and started to spiral. I was afraid of falling into suicide ideation again and I’ve been able to regulate but today I feel in shock and picking myself apart blaming myself feeling like it always comes down to the 1 abandonment trigger and men describing me as a “liability”. It’s the worst pain to be told this and I feel like a monster, scary and unlovable. I would never harm anyone since I’m so sensitive to people’s needs because I have experience a life of abuse and neglect. I see myself snd I am described as super kind, good communicator, patient and loving. So when both men I loved and spoke about marriage they both described me una way like a liability to their children. 😢 I feel so misunderstood by the very same people who know exactly what traumas I’ve survived.
I would never want to hide from my future husband all of who I am but his has reinforced my fear of opening up to people about my borderline trigger. I articulate well what I am experiencing in the moment and exactly what help I need. I don’t yell, blame or run away. I know I’ll be ok because nothing lasts for ever but right now I’m hoping I can get a support system from you guys and encouragement. Can you relate? What did you do to cope in the mean time and looking back what did you take away from the sistuation? ❤️ #Borderline #PTSD #ChildhoodTraumaSurvivors #Suicide #Divorce #breakup #Relationships #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BorderlineStigma
My mom is supportive now. Growing up, I wish she were more supportive. She just didn't know then. She didn't know the value of mental health care and treatment. She didn't trust it. Depression runs in our family. Now, I support my daughter in her journey. My daughter is getting help at a younger age than when I really started getting the help I needed. This is what I feel is our role as parents and role models- make the world a better place for the younger generations. As we learn, we share, we heal, we hope.
What are your experiences?
#EndTheStigma #Depression #Therapy #mom #Anxiety #wellness #OCD #Disability #CBT #BingeEatingDisorder #Parenting #AspergersSyndrome #MentalHealth #MentalHealthAwareness #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BorderlineStigma #Bipolar2Disorder #Bipolar1Disorder #BipolarDepression
I’m really in need of a therapist in the Salt Lake City, Utah USA area.
I haven’t had any psych help since I moved across the country alone 2 years ago and I’m realizing that I’m in desperate need of assistance in my healing my deeper, more “subtle” issues.
Any recommendations would be so greatly appreciated ❤️ PS I’m agnostic, so ideally not looking for a provider that focuses on god/religion. Pic for attention - my cutie who helps keeps me emotionally grounded.
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#Borderlinerelationships #BorderlineStigma #BORDERLINEPROBLEMS #BPDDiagnosis #bpdsymptoms #Bpdisexhausting #BPDStigma
He's been the only person to have the patience and love to encourage me and stick by me. I pushed and he never left or judged me. He knew I had a disorder and after many, many, many failed medications, intakes, and therapies, one said you have BPD. But it was because I needed to try to help myself get control of myself somehow, the harder I pushed and he hung on, I knew I needed something. Then DBT came into my life after my new diagnosis, and life is changing. He's truly the other half to my avocado. No other piece, from a different fruit will ever fit. God's providence is amazing and filled with love!
I navigate through social interaction as a chameleon, adapting and radically changing my identity. Whether it be for the purpose of endearment, preventing them from leaving or because I do not know who I am. However, after such drastic identity changes and attempts, I feel an intense deep void within, ensuing me to experience loneliness. I often question, why do I incessantly change my personality. Why do I constantly contend with an empty vessel. Why can't I interact like most people do.
I was wondering whether anyone else experiences this? Feeling less alone in this battle.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BorderlineStigma #MentalHealth
#Emptiness
Today I was injuring myself on purpose- drinking decaf coffee even while my bariatric stomach hurt and hasn’t recovered from last Tuesdays binge with decaf. I honestly did it to injure myself, beat myself up deep down, while it was all disguised as a craving for feeling depressed about my uncle’s and grandpa’s passing away - bitch please! Food won’t numb the pain. It finally clicked - the obvious for some, but not for me with a sick mind in recovery - the physical pain in my stomach whenever I give it decaf or junk food or binge healthy foods is a cry for help from my body- I could die because of it. Like literally. So thank God I threw away the rest of the 20oz cup or decaf- and replaced it with my original healthy snack.
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