So, long story short, I went through a lot of childhood trauma, and it's taken me ages to even call it that, because it's significantly difficult for me to face up to it as a real issue in the first place. I like to avoid things.
Anyway, a good friend of mine convinced me to see a therapist, which has led to discussion of PTSD but I'd only ever heard of the traditional kind and I certainly don't have that.
But then they brought up C-PTSD and the symptoms I was exhibiting, and I did more research, and I've been reading things on here and... I don't know. It's got me up later every night.
I don't even know why it bothers me so much, to know that what haunts me has a name.
How do I deal with this? How am I supposed to react?