overwhelmingemotions

#overwhelmingemotions as I write this. Last weekend my husband packed all of his belongings and left. He came back the next day. But has made it clear we are not going right back to how things were. He’s taken off his wedding ring and refuses to put it back on. He chooses to sleep on the couch instead of our bed. He’s so distant and very short tempered. We have been together since I was 17, so eighteen years, married for 10 come this August. So when I say this is #Heartbreaking believe me I seriously feel I could die of a broke. Heart at this point. You wanna know why I am even more upset? He went out last night, for a “guys night” with his single friends. No wedding ring, he spent 2 hours getting ready to go he shaved his head and trimmed his facial hair and put on his best clothes and shoes. Looking like he was about to take me out for date night! I over heard his friend through the phone while they were talking. The friend mentioned there would be hot girls, my husband immediately changed the subject as he walked out of the room. I asked him if this was a test, to see if I’d let my anxiety drive my jealousy and overbearing feelings and paranoia cause me to blow up his phone all night...he said no. Then I asked him if he would at least call me if he was too drunk to drive. He said no because he wasn’t leaving his truck anywhere, that he’d sleep in his truck! Oh I am so sick with worry that he’s cheating on me. We are supposed to be trying to work things out since 6 days ago...yet he’s doing this! What should I do? What would you think??

It seems to be a cycle with me that I will be ‘normal’ (for me this is a chronic struggle w/depression and anxiety) However, it seems like there is usually some sort of trigger that sets my body, nerves and emotions off. I can only describe it as my emotions being rubbed raw. It usually only lasts a two days to a week before I’m ‘right’ again this time it’s lasted almost three weeks.. how do I go back to normal? It seems like I’m constantly shaking, the smallest things will set me crying or struggling to catch my breath. I just feel overwhelmed almost constantly. Is this overstimulation from anxiety? Should I talk to my doctor? #overwhelmingemotions #ineedhelp #StrugglingWithEmotion

I’ve already been overwhelmed

Got a call today from my work.....had let it go to voicemail

Well the message was asking me to come back to work....should be great right?

Had a panic attack....my work place is so toxic...so unhealthy....with a narcissistic manager

I can’t go back to that.....

I’m already in such a bad place....when is it the last straw?

Does anyone else ever wish they could just rip your heart out of your own chest??? Bare hands and all!!
Maybe it would help with these crappy intense emotions that come outta nowhere sometimes.

After another traumatic event my therapist decided to prescribe meds again. (Knowing I have had many suicide attemps already) Since yesterday I‘m on Quetiapine. (against suicidal behaviour, overwhelming emotions, dissociation, and insomnia) Does anyone here with #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder have any experiences with Quetiapine? What should I expect?
(I have been on Ripedon (Risperidon) before, but it was awful)
Thank you in advance!
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Medication #PsychiatricMedication #Anxiety #Insomnia #overwhelmingemotions #SuicidalThoughts #PTSD #dissociativedisorders #Dissociation

I have a super important family event in 4 weeks and I’m freaking out already. So many people will be there that I’ve never met before, and it scares the living crap out of me. I wonder if how I look will be enough, if the dress I already decided on wearing will be pretty enough, will the shoes match? I’m so scared to go but I know I have to. I’ve always struggled with meeting new people, but this is so important to my fiancé and I can’t let him down. I’m afraid that I will break down and disappoint him. I know he will never be disappointed in me and is my biggest supporter, but it still worries me. I don’t know what to do, my minds racing with thoughts of how I will mess it up, how I will leave bad first impressions. I’m scared and I don’t know what to do. #feelingscared #overwhelmingemotions #overthinking