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I love taking a nap, because I can skip time and rest. It’s so comfortable under the blanket, so warm and cozy.

Could also be a depression thing.

I know it’s random but I wanted to share this with you.

° " So I Have Been So Busy With Work Lately... I Barely Have Time To Post When I Can... So Last Night I Came Across A Rude Post Like Alway's... Again If You Don't Like What I'm Expressing Or Posting " DON'T READ IT... OR EVEN BOTHER TO LEAVE AN EXTREMELY RUDE COMMENT! "... That's Another Reason I Stopped Doing My Poetry.. Because Apparently Whatever I Write Or Experienced In My Life Or At Work.. Is Somehow Negative And Hurtful ???.. Look I Only Rarely Come On Here To Begin With... Just To Only Answer People I Know... I Will Not Be Made To Leave This App Just Because.. Random People Want To Be Troll's.. This Is A #mental Health.. App And • Freedom Of Speech • Come's Along With It!!! I'm Here To Help Other's When Needed.. Or To Express Myself And My Thought's..." • Sincerely, #Thought 's ☆S.K. ☆

My emotions are stronger without medicine. My creativity is stronger, my happiness more potent. But the depression is a near constant battle. My brain works against me, slinging insults at every turn, catching me off guard and crowding my mind when I try to rest.

My will is sapped, my whole life freezes and I’m left trying to push through the sluggishness of ‘what’s the point’ and ‘you’ll never be good enough.’

I don’t know if I made the right decision coming off it. I know I don’t want to go back on it because it feels like a step backwards. I’m too optimistic at heart to be suicidal, but my brain is so clogged and sapped that I can’t find the will to live. I miss it. I hope it comes back soon.

I don’t love who I am without the medicine. I really hope I can make this work long term, because I hate relying on it. I want to be my best self without it, but to do it I somehow need to accept and manage my worst self too. #random thoughts #Depression #tired