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I talked to myself many times, and yes, I answered to myself. I wonder how many of you have conversations with yourself. No doubt I feel lonely and isolated many times, and I wonder if will find MY PERSON one day.

It has to do a lot with feeling that constant question of " WOULD HE ACCEPT ME WITH EVERYTHING THAT I AM? WOULD HE BE ABLE TO LIVE WITH MY PAIN? WITH MY ANXIETY? WITH MY RAMBLING?

I LAUGH A LOT! And I like that about myself because I have fun with myself, I AM PROUD OF MYSELF, because I have managed to find wonderful coping skills to survive, and so, YES, I tell myself, I LOVE YOU!

NO DOUBT, I'm imperfect, full of asterisks, commas, exclamation points, and yes, question marks, but....with my rambling I SEE MY SHINING, MY CONNECTION TO ALL THAT IT IS, MY HELPING MANY PEOPLE AROUND ME.

I don't have to ask if I have made a difference in this world, I KNOW IT. Is this pretentious? Is this crazy? Is this WEIRD?

AM I WEIRD?

I know you are there, I have my open arms willing to hug you, and my eyes sparkle connecting with my SPECIAL YOU, and with all of you. Simply, I AM ALIVE!

AM I WEIRD?

Maybe I am a WEIRD SURVIVOR, #survivingstill

AM I WEIRD? FEEL ME! because I am willing, to be the supporting EQUAL SIGN, that knows it will never be EQUAL because we'll be changing every day, but SO willing to LEARN each day.

AM I WEIRD?

Because somehow, I AM HERE, even in my dreams. My subconscious lives with the second-by-second fight or fly, while my consciousness knows: THE RIVER OF LIFE is rocks, fish, water, atoms, energy, and dirt.....WE, THEY, US, YOU, and Me.

BESOS from ...AM I WEIRD?

#Survivors #Anxiety #PTSD #againstageism #stopthehate #Hope #MentalHealth #saludmental #pandemia #Cancer #Sepsis #balance #Love

Is anybody experiencing horrible sleeping problems? Sadly, out of the blue, around 15 days ago, even with sleeping medication I'm having some horrible times with sleeping. I can not find any changes in my routine affecting me this way. How do you deal with this problem? how many of you have sleeping issues? Have you ever tried Ambien or the generic Zolpidem and had strange side effects? I need to find answers because I feel exhausted. Is funny in some way I want to find my personal solution, and another side wants to find out more in general about how is this problem part of our health communities. #MentalHealth #Sleep #Insomnia #Anxiety #saludmental #Survivors #advocates #PTSD

"I HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT,

EVEN IF THE PAST HURTS,

AND THE PRESENT IS NOT THAT EASY TO WALK ON.

SAYING THAT, I DO HAVE MANY AMAZING MOMENTS IN THIS LIFE EVERY DAY, AND THE PLEASURE OF KNOWING SO MANY OF YOU, AMAZING HUMAN BEINGS."

I am Jesus Guillen, a 37 years HIV long-term survivor, and a 12 years Cancer Survivor living with chronic pain, PTSD, and ANXIETY. Also, I AM :) CREATIVE, OPTIMISTIC, ROMANTIC, and a stubborn loving single-gay Capricorn.

June 5th, HIV LONG TERM SURVIVORS awareness day

#hivlongtermsurvivors #Together #MentalHealth #saludmental #Hope #healthevoices #Aging #StopHomophobia #LGBTQIA WEGO Health , The Mighty, HEALTHeVOICES - A groundbreaking leadership conference

If you haven't watched LAST MEN STANDING, here is the link: Link to free streaming of the Emmy

awarded documentary

"LAST MEN STANDING",

Last Men Standing Screener-HD.mp4

En mi pais, Mexico, cuando iba creciendo, nunca escuche una palabra bonita para quien soy como persona gay. Escuchaba por aqui y por alla, de manera denigrante: PUTO, MARICA, MARICON, batea con la mano izquierda, le hace agua la canoa, quizas la palabra MARIPOSA, es la unica hermosa palabra, pero creeme, no lo decian de una manera de honrar, sino de insultar. SI, soy una MARIPOSA, que seguira volando, y que es mucho mas fuerte de lo que muchos pensaron y pensaran, como la mariposa MONARCA, que vuela distancias grandisimas para completar su jornada. En este mes de JUNIO, mandandole mucho carino a todas/todes/todos los que estan todavia en un capullo, escondidos por seguridad, y a todas/todes/todos los que vuelan abiertamente con las alas totalmente extendidas, con brillantes colores, como una hermosa mariposa. Soy, GAY, y asi mismo, un sobreviente del VIH/SIDA por 37 anos. GRACIAS A todos/todas/todes por su apoyo siempre, y a los que me han bulleado, ojala que encuentren su paz y su realidad completa sin seguir atacando a otras/es/os. SUSPIRANDO!!! cada vez que mueves tuas alas, creas un arcoiris. #MARIPOSA #Gay #juntes #Together #VIH #hivlongtermsurvivors #supervhivents #sobrevivientes #saludmental