Schizophrenia Spectrum and Psychotic Disorders

I really hope I lose all this unwanted weight and keep it off permanently. In the past I was on Adipex (a weight loss pill), I lost all the weight on the pill but when I stopped taking it I ended up gaining back more weight and it damaged my skin with deep acne scarring. I want to lose all this weight naturally and safely and to never gain back any unwanted weight. It would mean the absolute world to me if I lost all this unwanted weight and kept it off permanently

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My doctor says I need to lose it. It would mean the absolute world to me if I lost all this unwanted weight and kept it off permanently. Please don’t comment saying it’s okay to be overweight or stupid stuff like that because nobody wants to be fat unless if you are stupid. I just hope I lose all this weight and keep it off permanently

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Not sure if anyone will find this interesting, but I sometimes have moments of lucidity into what it’s like living with schizoaffective disorder. I’m not up to date on the latest research, but from my experience, I believe the "split" in schizophrenia is actually a survival or coping mechanism in response to extreme duress.

When I’m not split from myself, I’m much more sensitive to pain. I notice how my skin can feel like it’s burning, and how each passing moment carries a suffocating gravity with it. It’s difficult to sit with these sensations, but meditation has helped me find ways to channel and understand the pain and discomfort. In a lot of ways, it’s helping me come back to myself — one little step at a time. Acknowledging and understanding why the pain is there, and then integrating it into my life, rather than numbing it out or splitting away from it. It’s agony sometimes, but it’s worth it to feel anything again.

I think the disorganized thinking often seen in schizophrenia is a symptom of that split. When you create a second self that’s numb to what your authentic self is experiencing, you lose your true anchor. It becomes easy to get caught up in the whirls and eddies of other people’s consciousness and motives, without realizing you’ve become completely detached from your own values. (This is actually what my children’s book was about.)

When the second self gets corrupted, it’s understandable that the personality loses its integrity and becomes fragmented and disorganized.

Those of us with schizoaffective disorder are a small subset of the population — but in some ways, I think this happens to everyone, just to different degrees. I’m grateful I’m making progress in navigating this disease. If sharing this helps someone else who’s struggling, even better.#SchizophreniaSpectrumPsychoticDisorders #schizoaffective #Schizophrenia

Please pray that the devil is gone and removed from me forever. I would be so happy if the devil is gone from me forever and never comes back.

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Once upon a time, in the whimsical world of Mindville, lived Neurotic Nelly, who fretted about every detail, and Psychotic Pete, who thrived on chaos and absurdity.
One sunny day, Nelly was meticulously organizing her collection of worry dolls when Pete burst in, wearing a cape made of mismatched socks. "Nelly! The invisible gnomes are plotting to steal our gravity! We need to counter their anti-gravity lasers with tinfoil hats!"
Nelly blinked, her mind racing. "But... I don't have any tinfoil hats!"
"No worries!" Pete declared. "We'll use these pie tins and banana peels instead."
As they crafted their makeshift headgear, Nelly's usual anxiety over the color-coding of her sock drawer seemed insignificant compared to Pete's harebrained schemes. "Pete, are you sure this will work?"
"Absolutely," Pete said, his eyes gleaming with manic excitement. "Now, let's march backwards to confuse the gnomes!"
So, Nelly and Pete paraded around Mindville, causing bewildered glances from the townsfolk. Despite the sheer absurdity of it all, Nelly felt a strange sense of relief; her usual worries were drowned out by Pete's relentless, nonsensical energy.
By the time the invisible gnomes (who were, in reality, non-existent) were "defeated," Nelly found herself laughing hysterically. "You know, Pete, you might be the best cure for my neurosis."
Pete grinned. "Chaos is the spice of life, Nelly. Now, let's plan our defense against the rogue rainbows!"
Ad so, in the land of Mindville, Neurotic Nelly and Psychotic Pete lived chaotically ever after, proving that sometimes, a little madness is the best remedy for overthinking.

The end.
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Finally in the process of getting the help I have been needing. I know they say to trust the process, do the work... One step at a time. Why does it seem like all I'm doing is waiting? Why do I get more anxious after an appointment than I am at the beginning of it? It doesn't help that when I have a psychotic episode they seem to be lasting longer and I don't trust my own thoughts or perception... This has all been a new eye opening journey but also a scary one because I'm just learning about my disorders and the symptoms from them which is definitely giving me some clarity for certain situations that have happened throughout my life but it's also disheartening. I live with so much guilt and shame, I can't help but wonder that if I had help sooner that maybe I wouldn't have all this regret. I know I shouldn't dwell on the past and focus on creating a better future, a better version of myself (whoever the help that is) but that's easier said than done.