I have never had any eating disorder.
But the voices now tell me I’m not allowed to eat. I’ve lost 2 kg in a week. I can drink. Tried soup and other things I am able to drink from a mug.
Voices punish me for letting my soul free last tuesday. He is hiding smong the stars. And too afraid to return.
Voices tell me they will kill my soul.
Anyway. Someone here with good advice on how to start eating again? I don’t have the energy to fight the voices yet.
Speaking about voices
I’m in hospital. Visiting home today. My boys (adult, still living at home) ask me a lot about my voices. And I have always told them.
Now a worker at the hospital tells me to shut up. I’m not supposed to talk about them with my family. It can damage the (adult) kids.
I have always been open to them. Once my voices told me to kill my son with a hockey stick but I trashed a wardrobe instead and ran away from home leaving two kids 5 and 9 years old with the other parent. I was gone for 8 months.
I attempted suicide and passed out infront of my 9 yo son.
They are already as involved as they can be.
I can’t make these things undone.
Other workers in hospital tells me the complete opposite. It’s good to be open.
I am confused.
Any advice is welcome.
Have only slept 2-4 hours/night for 6 weeks. My doctor has prescribed about every medicine that is not a bensodiazepine. nothing works.
Now they are talking about hospital again.
I really really don’t want to go.
I have had a religious awakening.
I released my soul last night. It’s floating with the breath of universe. I am now connected to every tiny bit of universe.
How do I feel? I feel good. All anxiety and pain is gone. I feel s bit tipsy.
Doctor says I’m ill. .
My Joy is gone!
Hi, I struggled everytime wanted to share what I’m going thru in my life journey now. My elder son is in his early 30’s, diagnosed with schizophrenia since he was 24. Taking care of him seems tough cos it affects my emotions every single day. He’s on oral treatment but the disorganization of his thoughts and strange beliefs that’s tormenting him never goes away. I’ve tried many ways to help him be it medical or spiritual, nothing works . He can’t work, stays home but feels lonely ,afraid to go out by himself bcos a voice keep him someone will kill him, sleeps all day , awakes at night , wants me to find him a wife to get married . I’m v tired and exhausted bcos I work 8 hrs a day sleeps only 4hrs everyday. He has ocd, hoarding habits, smokes a lot & loves to buy Lego and other figurines. I don’t know how to manage his moodswing , can’t talk him out of his strange beliefs. I’m v upset with myself for not able to help him . My husband is not helping much too but just pampers him as to please him but complains a lot at his back and blames me many times . My husband and I have different opinions as we aged, relationship is not working well now.
Sorry for writing such long passage and thanks for listening to my grumbles.
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Do you go through periods of catatonia as part of your mental illness?
I wish as a child I was able to have someone like myself who really understood me 35+ years ago. People didn't openly speak about mental disorders
SB 1338 Care Act in Calif.
CARE Act, which would authorize specified people to petition a civil court to create a CARE plan and implement services, to be provided by county behavioral health agencies, to provide behavioral health care, stabilization medication, and housing support to adults who are suffering from schizophrenia spectrum and psychotic disorders and who lack medical decisionmaking capacity. Rather than involuntary psych ward, conservatorship, and/or prison. #End stigma #MentalHealth