Schizophrenic

I keep losing my therapists due to burnout on their end. It makes me sad that I have to continually start over. I just want some continuity. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Selfharm #BipolarDisorder #Schizophrenic #Anxiety

I got mine in the mail yesterday just in case I turn critical before I can get to an out of state hospital with a specialist…. I got COVID in May and developed QT Long Syndrome so all psych meds stopped, except Elavil. June I had a stroke that left me weak on one side, not able to write or speak properly, or even more around well. Few weeks later I had a Dystonia episode that almost killed me. Elavil was stopped. My Gastroparesis was continually getting worse since COVID and because my heart meds are not option at this point. I now I have a PEG tube but still pleasure eat some. In two weeks I will be getting a PEG-J to completely by pass my stomach. I am in the hospital more than I am home so it feels like it. All I do is sleep. Life is hard and a long life just isn’t the cards anymore. My end of life packet came in the mail yesterday. Five Wishes. This is my PARENTS know my final wishes and planning a memorial service. It seems so backwards. I am only 33…. How did I reach this point? What did I do or not do? How in the world can I fix this when my state won’t even help me?! No idea how long I have to wait for Houston but my body is giving up and I am afraid I won’t make it to that appt. But I cannot bring myself to fill out this packet. Feels like giving up but my parents need to know these things….. #Gastroparesis #FeedingTube #CriticalCare #scared #how #why #doesitgetbetter #endoflife #longcovid #Stroke #LongQTsyndrome #HeartHealth #MajorDepression #Schizophrenia #Schizophrenic #Anxiety #PTSD #MedicalPtsd

If anyone can give me some advice on how to save my sisters life, I would be deeply indebted to you.

I’ve tried to help her on my own, since I am her oldest sister, in the hopes that she would trust in what I was telling/asking of her. As well as given my background as a School counselor, as well as having my bachelors in Psych. Anyways, here’s a quick run down...

Approx 4 weeks ago, my 26 year old sister shot me a text in the wee hours of the morning, rambling on about how a mouse 🐭, ran straight across her toes while she was washing her hands. ** I seen the flag here, but she wasn’t really waving it just yet ^^ So I believed her.

Now, this very moment in our universe, she believes mice have nested and birthed little spawn mice, in her MATTRESS!!! And to make things better, she went to Home Depot and spent $350, just in mouse traps and those things you plug in your wall and emit a noise which mice despise. She did not cheap herself out on this little shopping spree.

That was three weeks ago I’d say, and her mental status has not changed in a positive way. She’s rapidly declining. Breaking point for me was when she told me she finally had the proof. She finally caught one and now we will all believe her! I was excited. I came to her house about thirty minutes after the text and I see her slicing open her head rest from her vehicle. There is foam everywhere. She’s barely wearing clothes and her hair is a hot mess. I told her to pull a mouse out of that thing right now. I WANTED SO BADLY FOR THERE TO BE A MOUSE IN IT.

Long story short, cops were called due to her erattic behavior and the fact that my mother was afraid to fall asleep at night because my sister might try and kill her. She has been removed from the house, but manipukated my parents to allowwing her back home. She had not admitted herself into crisis as I told her too. She went to the ER with my father. An hour after arriving, her and him are on their merry way home. She lied to the doctors.

I don’t know what else to do. I’ve exhausted every avenue, and every connnect, except one. She is the mother to my beautiful five year old nephew. His father and my sister have joint custody. My nephew is my concern. His safety is my concern. Yet, no one will let me loop his father in, so he can keep him for a while until my sister seeks help. Ugh. My nephew is the only thing that she says is good in her life. But she is no good to him on this condition.

Any words of advice? What do you all think she is Experiencing?? 🧐🤪

I've had at least three people in the last fourteen days come up to me and ask if what I'm seeing may be ghosts or demons sent to me by God. I awkwardly laughed it off but it's been bothering me ever since then. You wouldn't go up to a person with cancer and say that they've been cursed by God or that it's a task given to them by God. So why is it still right to do that to people on the schizophrenic spectrum? Not only is it extremely hurtful because it gives us the feeling we're not being taken seriously but it can also feed into delusions. I'm not seeing ghosts, I have a metabolic disease that messes with my brain chemistry, Karen! #Schizophrenic #Hallucinations

I had to send him to my familys lake house. To keep him safe. He was super manic n He kept getting jumped in my neighbor hood. 12 Staples in his head. 3 seperate concussions. Broken jaw. Pistol whipped. Hes been up there almost a year. But has been in a downward spiral. Refusing treatment for his mental health.
He thinks hes fine like he is. Super depressed. Spends 20 hrs a day asleep. Wont go to the dr. Has been off his meds. Wont care for himself. Goes weeks without a shower. Only eats if food made and placed in front of him. Rarely leaves the bedroom. Im afraid for him. Idk if I can bring him back home here to try to help and still keep him safe. Advice?