Seperationanixety

I'm in a different state.... I've been homeless for 2 months and I've been in the same country 1 time. I'm lost and hurt, and apparently I called of our engagement. The one I proposed and she never answered. The same one she told me would never happen. Like I know she has DID but shes been a narcissist for months and continues to tear apart my life. Why can I not stop loving her? I've done nothing but suffer for almost a year now waiting and trying to fix things. I can be over bearing with the paranoid delusions but stalking? I'm so lost I moved to Texas for that woman and and she pleaded for me to come back. I don't feel like im good enough, and I don't feel her words are true. I hate this.... she told my mother she was having nightmares and barley eating for months bevause she's terrified she will wake up to news of suicide.... but she strips me of everything I love and care about and rips apart my life. I don't feel good, I don't want to live, but I have much more to lose and many people I would hurt. Im appaled and disgusted, and I still want to work this out and marry her.... #Depression #CPTSD #anxiaty #Void #Seperationanixety

I experience the worst separation anxiety from my partner when I am in a depressive state and I feel like asking him for constant reassurance is putting a strain on our relationship. I love him so so much and nearly everyone in my life has left me and I don’t know if I’ll survive if he leaves. #Seperationanixety

#Comfort

Hi everybody yesterday was a rough day it wasnt the greatest so I remembered a pink box I had and filled up some helpful supplies heres what I put

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some stress dough or play dough I stored mine in an empty medicine bottle lol

crayons with some paper to color and have me relax

AWESOME book from Walgreen that is an anxiety \ encouragement book its very cute and helpful it has a little blue blop cute character on the cover I really reccoment it !!

A mint tea bag

A reminder to drink water

 some mints

 heres just some ideas and I hope this helps ;]

Yesterday was a rough day for me, it started good and great my mom left to go see my grandparents and I did my own thing for a while , then my dad tried calling her she didnt pick up . I called my mom again , my grandpa , and my grandma I was sent into a panic and I wanted to call 911. I didnt my my mom called me back and she said she was going to be back a while later , so I did some tie dye to distract then I went on a walk with my dad and brother . My mind went to dark places what if she died ..... what would become of my dad would he be able to take care of us , what happened if she slept on the way home and it was a car crash . After the super hot walk in the sun I came back home and my mom pulled up in the driveway and I hugged her and was glad she was okay

Howdy everyone !,
         Today I'll be talking about teenage separation anxiety I feel like this topic really doesn't get talked about enough so I decited to shed some light on it . It feels isolating and hard to be a teen girl having sep anxiety . It mostly occurs with my mom since my mom and I have an extremly close relationship together. But having the ,is anxiety makes me feel osterzied and not like my fellow peers . I could barely go to school , I was always checking my phone if it was charged in case I needed to call someone . I would get anxious waiting in the car for my mom if she ran to get something in a car or if its something small like returning a cart. All of this made my socail life extremely hard and I felt like i wasn't a ''normal'' teen . I missed my mom and i was visibly upset, if i went to a friends house I had to call my mom to pick me up . It wasn't fun. I got anxious and started comparing myself to others how nobody wants me around , how will I get a boyfriend if I'm attached to my mom at the hip . My separation anxiety has spikes sometimes I'm ok not that anxious when she leaves , but I have gotten a bit better , I get anxious staying home alone still while my dad and mom go on dates . But I think I'm getting better , I do have my ups and downs though . I can go to school easier since I have more support so thats great

So lately I’ve been tryna make a list for my gf of things that will help keep me stable and calm with my BPD and anxiety. I have a few things but I thought I’d get some input. Anybody have some ideas? #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #bpdcoping #BORDERLINEPROBLEMS #Anxiety #Seperationanixety

So recently me and my girlfriend have had a couple big fights. We are okay and still love each other but I have found that after these fights I have felt way less anxious. I have been working on myself so much and all I ask from her is to help keep me going sometimes. Lately I haven’t gotten stressed out and resulted in spamming her being all worried and shit which is a huge improvement and she is really proud.
Just wanted to post this so anyone who feels like “I’m a hopeless case no matter how hard I try I won’t get better” you will I promise! I am so glad to have her help because when I find myself slipping up again she is always there to bring me right back up. If anyone ever needs to talk my IG is in my bio and I’m always there for anyone. Stay strong everybody🖤
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BORDERLINEPROBLEMS #Borderlinerelationships
#Seperationanixety

Okay so in my hometown there is this Fourth of July fair that goes on the week of the fourth. It’s a really big deal where I come from and everyone in town tries to go at least once during the week. Well tonight my family has gone. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place because I know myself I know the second I start to get worked up over anything whether it’s that I’m uncomfortable temperature wise or my feet hurt or I’m overwhelmed, my reaction is anger frustration and anxiety. I don’t want it to be a negative situation for myself and everyone around me, because then I’m made to feel like crap from the voices in my own head and from some people around me. However my nephew/son is going and Ik that he is going to have a good time and enjoy himself. I as one of his primary caregivers want nothing more than to watch him at something like this. So then I get to feeling bad and wanting to just suck it up and go with him so I can watch. Which causes my rock and hard place, I finally make my decision and then wonder if it was the right one. Like what if I miss out on something that he does or says? I’ve never missed anything as far as milestone go for him and most of the time I’m at the first several times he does things. It’s so hard for me to leave him or let him leave me. I really struggle with it and then I end up with mom guilt and start thinking is this going to effect him long term? I don’t know how to change this. He starts preschool in a few weeks and I dreading not being able to be with him all day. Ik it’s the separation we both need but he’s been with me pretty much 24/7 for the last 2.5 years.

I’ve recently caught my husband cheating on me with a prostitute. Found different dating profiles of him searching for girls to sleep with online. I feel so hurt and disgusted, my anxiety is almost constant my appetite is non existent, my insomnia is bad. My parents disowned me recently for finding out I was married. It’s hard to function at work and now my issue of getting out of bed and taking on life is even harder. The divorce isn’t final since he refuse to sign any papers and insists on working things out. I’ve been ignoring him for days now and as the days pass I’ve been getting angrier and angrier. Idk what to do anymore. I don’t have another place to stay so I can’t just pack my shit and leave my job and the life I made here.

I think I just need some encouragement and advise from those who are going through the same and what’s keeping them sane #Divorce #Anxiety #Depression #Seperationanixety #cheating